mesmerized

2012-02-17T14:40:00.000+08:00

if i know how to write a song, i will write about my feelings now....
anyone can be Adele, maybe we are not determine enough.

Okay. Just of have to focus on what i like to do now.
i have new hobbies that will keep me very busy. :)

And Holidays are over!

2012-02-07T16:32:00.002+08:00

CNY 2012 is over. No more reason to Slack. No more excuses. Its time like this i remind myself to work harder and be productive. Feels like so many things happened during January, i have a job offer. Took me a while to decide. Didn't handed it too well... appreciate all the comments and helpful advise but i know i already have the answer in my head before i asked, just wanna check on what everyone else think.

So, what's next?

Place hunting.......... i believe i work so hard just to make life happier and easier.
Get a diving license...... Get a Camera and more Traveling and also EARNINGS.
Each year it becomes simpler and simpler.
Finding what makes me happy and DO IT.
Create and Renew my Wishlist.
Hope ALL things get so much Better.

There is a lot of things i still cannot afford 'yet', but most of all....... i cannot afford any dramas and time wasting anymore. I don't need anymore new friends.

Lets do this 2012! gimme an A plus!

End of 2011

2011-12-20T09:54:00.000+08:00

11 days more to 2012.
every end of the year i asked myself, have i achieve any of my resolutions?
answer is: i cant even remember whats in my resolutions. Maybe i havent set any GREAT goals this year.
i guess maybe ive done more than half of them, should be glad.

I've been lazy, didnt update my blogs, havent really write any journals and i sure my hasnt improved writing skills had gone worst.. but i am sure ive done something fulfilling this year... i remember:

1) i had my pay raised. i am happy disregard of 'how i get it'
2) traveled to Langkawi, Singapore, KK,Kuching, Taiwan. <--- at least there is a new country over there.
this year, i didnt travel with May, i travel with my other best friend and love, Deno. Its equally fun. :)
3) things happened, but i've got several freelance jobs just like a 'click'. i am sure if i was more hardworking.. i could've done more.
4) better working performance. Won a few projects at work.
5) Girlfriends!!!!
6) Understandings between Me and Deno
6) Clearer goals for next year and future.

Those are the great things.. of course there were couple of money lost and small accidents and dramas which gave me so much lesson learned. Overall, it was a bad as i thought, it was very very relaxing. But i am sure next year 2012 will be a GREAT YEAR for me! i am looking forward for a new start and hopefully a new beginning!!!

Merry Xmas and Happy New year!

Basketball Court Converted to Fantastic Home

2011-09-23T13:58:00.000+08:00

Basketball Court Converted to Fantastic Home

next time i think i am just gonna buy an old basketball court or badminton court and convert it as my office or a house.
This article is so inspiring and special.

Gallery

2011-09-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Few days ago, i was asked to transform these space (below) into another 'theme'.

Hacking must be minimal. This is an area for XXX ministry building to showcase Brunei to foreigners. Or we can call it a MINI museum.

Before: to showcase each Departments' Uniform and display

This is what i came out with...

A total new LOOK.


A New Reception and more modified showcase area

i love playing around with ceilings with different shapes.

Rather than a plain wall, i add strips of wood for textures and levels.


Black goes well with any color. I like the invention of interactive TV, save space and printing for posters. And its much more interesting and better quality to see pictures on TV.

More and more projects coming up and i really want to do my best and finish everything before my holiday!!

Testing blogging from android.

2011-09-17T10:54:00.001+08:00

Woww.... I've been waiting for this eversince smart phone were introduced. My blog is like my diary that can attach pictures conveniently.
Now i know what to do during my free.time waiting for something....

Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

HAPPY

2011-09-16T16:32:00.008+08:00

I’ve always wanted a dog because they are loyal and I have seen how smart they are with my own eyes. Last year around June, a friend’s dog gave birth to puppies. All of them look the same but strangely my eyes only met one puppy. Looking at her brown eyes, I fell in love. I brought her home to see my other family members. She wasn’t shy at all, running and tripping around like a rolling marsh mellow, couldn’t get our eyes off her. From then on, i decided to name her ‘HAPPY’. And yes, she never fail to put a smile on each of my family member’s face.

First time i brought her to my room....she pee-ed.

Mom love her the most, she's like her little baby..

they shares the same bday.

The happiness HAPPY gave us.

This is when i have to wake up 6 am in the morning to bring her to do her BUSINESS

When Happy was younger, she has brown furs and white paws!

Happy is not a smart dog, but she is kind.
She shares her food with rats and cats when we are not around.

Happy love being loved...-typical CANCER.

i still remember how she was pampered by JHA that day...
it was the best day of her life
as you can see from the picture below
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.......
'i dont wanna go home......'

And then she met DENO,

A picture take by Deno personally...

One of her favorite person in the world,
as he is the only one who has patience to teach her tricks
and punish her when she is naughty.

Happy loves to go on a ride in my car.
She loves the Wind......

the only time that she can really FLY...

Happy's first toy that involved money.

and she lost it. :(

so i gave her my old toy.....it was a tough decision...

after almost 7 months, she learned how to SIT...
When she turned ONE, she learned how to sit ON a chair.
Ah Son taught her how to.

During Happy's One year old birthday....

Her presents.

Pet don ask for more.

I love the fact that she is the only one who will welcomes me home everyday,
LOVE us unconditionally no matter what happened.
The only one who dont take things personally regardless of anything.
Reminded me to do the same.... how strange......
why cant we do the same to people that we love?

She keeps us Happy in too many ways that it’s impossible for me to write it in a short time. It is very strange feelings how animals cannot speak our language but them can feel what we feel.

She is exactly the pet that i always dream about when i was younger. :D i wish i can give her more than i can... a big compound for her to run......

THANKS TO THE UNIVERSE.

If It’s Important, You’ll Find A Way. If It Isn’t, You’ll Find An Excuse

2011-08-24T14:53:00.002+08:00

Some people dream of success, others make it happen. Of course, you can dream as much as you like but waiting for things to happen gets you nowhere. Get active and start making things happen.

Whatever journey your path takes you on, the most important thing is to have passion in what you do.

How many of you went to college, got your degree, and ended up doing something totally unrelated to your major? Studying it did not make you passionate about it. It wasn’t your path.

Education or even talent aren’t worth much without passion. So do the stuff that you love and you've always wanted to do because without it, you'll feel stuck and unfulfilled. If you work in a bank but your dream is to be a naturopath, then make those changes now. Make this year the turning point in your life. When you do what you love you will be rewarded — it will just flow naturally.

Look at those around you who just make things happen. They have a clear goal in mind and they know where they want to go. They don't always have a plan but they have the passion and the tenacity to make it work, and they achieve their goals as the end result.

Trust us when we tell you this. If something important to you, you WILL find a way. If it isn't, you'll find an excuse. It’s that simple. Find your way. Make it work, whatever it takes. Are you 10 kilos heavier than you should be? It is simple: Commit, go to that gym every day, no excuses, and train until you lose those 10 kilos. When you accomplish this, you'll have the confidence to do more. Set a goal and make it happen.

Want to stop smoking? Stop making excuses, take control of your circumstances before they take control of you.

Success isn't just about what you accomplish in your life, it's about what you inspire others to do and when you do accomplish something as simple as quitting smoking or losing weight, you'll inspire others to do the same. Anyone can change the world, and everybody should try. And it all starts with your own life.

Stop waiting for the perfect time to do what you want to do. Do it now.

Life begins at the end of your comfort zone, so get used to being uncomfortable. It won’t kill you. Do you need a sign? Here it is: - Bill Tikos

Copy this whole article from a website. i think it's worth reading for many times.

2011-08-22T17:07:00.005+08:00

Feel ugly, this time is not because of my skin nor gaining weight, its my temper. Lose control again.
Losing temper is so different from Losing weight, its so much harder.
I feel bad for my body, why did i torture myself like that? if i knew how to control my feelings and temper, i can control so many situations/difficulties.

Last time after a quarrel, i am regret that i didnt say something to hurt someone back.
Now, i am regret every time because i didnt hold back.

ANYWAY!!!! whats past, its THE PAST! i need to do something to feel beautiful again. Thus, i am very productive today. Finished the 4th design of BFC design. Something to be happy about and hopefully this project goes smoothly..

Vonster working

2011-08-12T16:55:00.003+08:00

Deleted over 500 pictures in my google account just by a quick CLICK. it was an accident click.
i am very very very UPSET! some of the memories are memories that i never want to forget.
Fine... i actually have a backup for each pictures, which is in.. MY HEAD.

Anyway. this is a recent work done by me. its just a small cafe at the back of a pharmacy shop. trying to get the idea from 'Jones the Grocer', but clearly this tiny space cannot fit to their 'wide open' concept. So i can only grab the idea of the material used... black board, steel effect, timber and black glossy(weird combination, but it really goes well, proven by Jones the Grocer)

Views from the pharmacy store : coming soon.

me and my 'finally..its done' look.. at night.

Vonster love SATCHEL

2011-06-23T15:26:00.006+08:00

this blog existed since 2006,

quarter of my life is recorded here.

because of facebook and other social websites, i neglected my little blog over here.

and soon it becomes a place that i vented the most. (which i already deleted)

i start doing this again because i realised that i have a lot to share and record about things that i love, my creation , how i am inspired. everything.

yes that was my initial plan back in the past. and how can i forget that i used to enjoy this? Eventhou i am not good with WORDs, i try my best. hehe

ok fine, real reason-> i read quite a few blogs lately. debbie introduce me www.fashiontoast.com and another one is 'lovely B' (about home decor), i am TRULY inspired and i want to do it too! OOPsss!

what happened today?

remember the first time that i saw this picture, i went crazy instantly.
this color brings out the personality of the look.

Bag is really a very important accessory to your outfit, really!! i agreed!

i look at it almost everyday, tweet about it, instagram it.
it wasn't on sale on the internet ( for this series) 3 months ago?
deno helped me to search it on EBAY few weeks earlier... and.....

yes! its mine! finally!
so excited! and it really looks exactly from the picture itself.

of course, i wanna show it off in no time!
such a beauty.

This model of the Cambridge Satchel goes well with any colors,
even the gold one doesnt look odd.
my favourite ones are the NEON series, all of the colors!

Vonster's back from a trip.

2011-02-28T15:34:00.004+08:00

Langkawi is so relaxing and it makes me feel like its a short DREAM when i get back.
we went on cruise, stayed at 2 very nice villa by the ocean, water sports and drink beer under the sun. that was actually what i was dreaming for last year. i always wanted to go on a cruise with someone. and trust me its almost exactly the same as i thought. except for the other 4 friends that we have, but it was all okay they are nice and fun to be with. so much laughters!

its like a little dream come true without me noticing. THANKS to the UNIVERSE! wished the holiday was longer. WHAT A NICE HOLIDAY!! luckily the hangover is not that serious as i thought.

i should maybe move on and start dreaming about my next trips until it comes true. :D

Vonster going back to KUCHING

2011-02-01T15:32:00.003+08:00

few days back, i wasnt that excited about going back to my real hometown- Kuching. its been 4 years time since i last went back. i didnt even really want to go back until my dad told me that every year, he spent cny without his kids, i felt guilty and booked my tickets few days after.

i start thinking back where my dad and my siblings used to do in kuching. we love going to the temples, running around in kampong areas, eating kolo mee every morning, ride motorbike with my cousins, good food, fire crackers, visit ALOT of relatives that i cant even remember their names...

all the cousins around my age are guys, they are the reason why i am slightly boyish and adventurous now. we love to go jungle tracking and go to the river. and stay up late playing hide and seek. i wouldnt have known how to ride a bicycle or fly a kite if i hasnt been to kuching.

remember those times when everyone sleeps/eat together, inventing new games, go under the rain and most importantly, eat together, a long table full of 30-40 people of your own blood during SA-CHAP MEH, despite- no aircon and have to do some houseworks. actually it wasnt tat bad, i did had a great time when i was little. yes, now i am starting to feel excited. i wanna visit clubs and shopping malls too, if i have the time. YES, CNY I FEEL YOU NOW. :D

Die Alone By Ingrid Michaelson (+ Lyrics)

2010-12-09T10:00:00.000+08:00

i love this song from Ingrid Michealson- DIE ALONE.
i love the rythm,love the music, love her voice, love the lyrics especially.
this is the 'only' song that i really really really heart (it really touches my heart) since 'The Littlest thing- Lily Allen' 2-3 years ago.

the littlest thing made me cried when i first listened to it and i wasnt even hurt. like i wanted to tell lily allen 'I FEEL YOU'.
whereas, this very new song makes me feel secure the more i listen to.

i find 'i am just a stranger, even to myself' is very well said. sometimes we dont even know ourselves. of course its a love song, a positive one.

this song can make someone wants to fall in love.

'I never thought I could love anyone but myself.
Now I know I can't love anyone but you.
You make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.'

2010-11-27T13:31:00.003+08:00

i love the movie Tangled. i love everything about it.
especially that DOG WANNABE horse, name MAXIMUS

its the edited Rapunzel from one of the fairy tales stories.
who don love fairy tales? even guys do, i guess they are just too shy to admit.
one of the reasons that i love to watch fairy tales movies is because of their soundtracks.
those songs are designed to fit in the movies. if i cant be one of the characters of fairy tales, at least i wish i can have a chance to sing/ act behind the scenes... how i wishhhhhhh

i would love to have the power of changing things to0....

*singing*
Flower, Gleam and Glow
Let your power shine
Make the clock reverse, bring back what once was mine
Heal what has been hurt, change the fates design
Save what has been lost, bring back what once was mine
What once was mine...

Vonster say monday is awesome

2010-08-02T17:08:00.003+08:00

awesome monday it is. thou i haven really come out with any works yet.
today i learnt to shift the bad energy to something else. and i felt great about it.
life is so good!!! more good news to come. :):):):):):):)

i know this is a good year for me because i believed so!

Vonster's secret admirer?

2010-02-05T09:15:00.003+08:00

' did you receive anything today?' a friend called up and asked.

' NO?!, how can? i dropped a letter at your car'

and i found this on the floor this morning.

-_-

this is a failure jest!

but it does make me smile :):)

early in the morning.

hahahahaha!

Vonster met AH LI

2010-01-18T01:03:00.002+08:00

it was a LOST Saturday afternoon, when i had nothing to do for 1 hour driving my car and decided to go window shopping myself... i made an illegal U-Turn and found someone pointing at me, it was CHEW LI!!!! what a coincidence! i stopped my car at the roadside immediately and she came into my car....

its been such a long time since i last saw Ah Li, we used to have basketball session together and have tea and parties.. we were not that close (as she is always occupied with LOVE) but... i enjoy talking to her whenever we have any conversation, so much laughter and i find her quite inspiring.
me and chew li can definitely talk for days i guess.

i was slightly pissed because she didnt contact me at all, she told me that she lost all her contacts.
okay that can be forgiven. i made her spend her Saturday night with me. we started playing all those LAME drinking games(that no one is willing to play with me) like we used to.
its really fun having her around :) :) :)
but she is going back tomorrow :( :( :(

how i wish Ah Li is always in Brunei.
goodbye/

Vonster's raining blue

2010-01-14T14:31:00.003+08:00

i think RAIN is romantic. even if i get wet, its okay.

but its been raining alot lately. and i am starting to hate it because my car is still in the workshop, its flooding EVERYWHERE and i cant even reach my car!

dont even know how to get back home.

WTF!

if i can live in a country which rains in a while, snows in a while, warm in a while, cold in a while.. that would be really great.. is there such country nowadays?

sigh... making everyone feeling so blue... really really blue...and sleepy.. and

MY LAZYNESS = x 10 than usual. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
why it floods in the afternoon?not in the morning before 8am?

the office is so quite.
my mind is very clear.

and i am clear of what i want TODAY,
I, chan evon, wants to stop wondering for empty promises.
I, chan evon, die also wanna get my car back TODAY!
I, chan evon, wants to finish at least one design of ATM TODAY!
I, chan evon, wants to CLEAR my mind! CLEAR! as in FORMAT!

p/s: great..rain is getting heavier.... -_-

Vonster's Vain thing!

2010-01-11T20:09:00.008+08:00

these are Lee Abrio's Shots that i personally like.
i picked some and edit my own since he's been busy.

Shots

these are from my 1st sessions

CRAZY POSE,
i remember this was a test shot.

other pictures from the beach. (Video Shooting)

p/s: recently i don drink anymore.

Vonster's video shooting

2009-12-28T13:13:00.005+08:00

i said i am gonna keep myself really busy and yes i did so.
even its not for money, i just want to participate and be wherever the weather.
Just because, LIFE IS SHORT!

My 1st outdoor shooting + video shooting was really relaxing.
Instructions from Joseph:
- stand still
- look emo all the time
- no smiling
- walk around

No Posing At All. <--- evon likes this!!
hahahahaha!!!!

nothing fancy here.

MISERABLE is our Theme

Here is the video!!!

Roads from Joseph Gatz on Vimeo.

i did had EYE MORE in my eyes but it just don work infront of camera.
don ask me why so emo?
because i have to fit in to the music, OKAY?
and be a ghost! LOL

Yea. Satisfy for my 1st time.
not bad!

comments from MAY:

-_-

Vonster cant wait!

2009-12-24T16:46:00.002+08:00

Damn! i've been viewing facebook for the whole afternoon.
its XMAS eve tonight and poor me and ezza have to stay in office.
Zzzzzzz.... i dont mean to be a hardcore blogger, but i really have nothing better to do.
or shall i say.. i am just slacking around. not in the right mood to work,
unfortunately i am in the right mood to PARTY~

you know.
i cant wait to go KL to meet KL friends,
i cant wait to go PHUKET with My dearest Ah May...
seriously... i cant wait no more....1 month and half to go!
i already start imagine what i am gonna wear and the wind of the beach
and we are going to do crazy stuff over there, we are going to have lots of fun!

Tickets ----- check!
Hotel ----- check!

I CANT WAIT! I CANT WAIT!

Vonster is melting again

2009-12-23T16:07:00.002+08:00

Joseph invite me for another shoot again...
this time, its VIDEO shooting.
i asked him what song is that, and he send me this song....

without second thought, i say YES!!!!!!
very much in love with this song.
excited!!! i can pretty much picture how the video's gonna be...

Elliot Smith - Between The Bars Lyrics

drink up, baby, stay up all night
the things you could do, you won't but you might
the potential you'll be, that you'll never see
the promises you'll only make

drink up with me now and forget all about the pressure of days
do what I say and I'll make you okay and drive them away
the images stuck in your head

people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

drink up, baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again between the bars where I'm seeing you
there with your hands in the air, waiting to finally be caught

drink up one more time and I'll make you mine
keep you apart deep in my heart separate from the rest
where I like you the best and keep the things you forgot

the people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

p/s: this is a xmas gift for myself! :)

Vonster's in holiday mood

2009-12-16T15:20:00.005+08:00

i am in holiday mooooood but sadly, there is no holiday for me.

BORING LAR!!! last year's xmas sucks too!!! damn it!

i am gonna make Xmas interesting this year!

hmph!!

AM VERY LUCKY because my colleagueS ARE fun to be with

without them i'll die of boredom in office!
weeee~

Ezza: EVON ARH!! I TELL U ARHH U BETTER DON TAKE MY PICTURE

Geri: ???????

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Vonster show off

2009-12-14T15:06:00.002+08:00

what to do? i really have nothing to update but this
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everything went great unexpectedly
and this is my favourite shooting session of all.
i find it very easy and comfortable to work with everyone.

Thanks to LEE, Gatz and Chin Seng (photographer)
INA and Elin (MUA and Hairstylist)

aww... Sunday is not Wasted again~~~~

Vonster turned on!

2009-12-10T15:36:00.004+08:00

if u ask me do i watch porn?
i would say i only watch porn with quality.
like the video below!

i never like lindsay lohan, but this video really turns me on.
even thou the ciggi part is nasty. but its so SEXY.
i like it!

Vonster don wake up

2009-12-09T13:47:00.002+08:00

Sleeping with butterfly
Airplanes
Take you away again
Are you flying
Above where we live
Then I look up a glare in my eyes
Are you having regrets about last night
I'm not but I like rivers that rush in
So then I dove in
Is there trouble ahead
For you the acrobat
I won't push you unless you have a net

You say the word
You know I will find you
Or if you need some time
I don't mind
I don't hold on
To the tail of your kite
I'm not like the girls that you've known
But I believe I'm worth coming home to
Kiss away night
This girl only sleeps with butterflies
With butterflies
So go on and fly then boy

Vonster's new addiction

2009-12-07T14:13:00.003+08:00

Ezza was very excited after she received a phone call this morning.

she went down and carry a box of 'something' back to office.

and she threwwwww this to me..................................

BEEEF PEPPORONIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!
MY PRECIOUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
SLURP SLURP!
i only have one piece few days ago and u cant imagine how slow i ate it!
now i have 12!!!!! oh weeee~~~

Vonster's drooling

2009-12-04T13:39:00.002+08:00

My very PRECIOUS last piece of Beef Pepperoni from Geri!

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i am drooling.....
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i shall EAT IT WISELY.........

A new decoration in my room is my friends and family,

i am not lonely anymore!

Vonster is earlybird!

2009-12-03T12:50:00.004+08:00

Waking up early in the morning is good. even its on Sunday.
you get to do so many things and at the end of the day,
you feel satisfied because what need to be done, its DONE!
and i even have so much extra time to blog.. .. its GOOD in a way.

Waking up early in the morning is good. even its on Sunday.
because you get to see 'shocking' faces.
Mom was surprised to see that i woke up earlier than her, cooking instant mee in the kitchen.
'thats my girl.....' she said. what so happy about that i wake up early? i wonder.
'Wa.. number 1 to reach office..' colleagues feel happy too,
no late to office = no complain in office = no sour face in the office...IS GOOD!

Waking up early in the morning is good. even its on Sunday.
because i get to eat LOVELY breakfasts at home without rushing..
eventhou traffic is jam but i still feel relaxed, even its under the sun..
hence, making me a 'patient' person and feeling GOOD for the rest of my day!

so.. WAKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING IS GOOD! *two thumbs up*

p/s: everything happened for a reason.

vonster talks world end

2009-11-09T12:54:00.002+08:00

i know this post is a bit insane but.. i still wanna share.
in the movie 'THIS IS IT' MJ mentioned ' we must share the love and do everything we can to save the world because we only left 4 more years til world's end....' (fiy, which is 2012)
damn it!!! FOUR MORE YEARS???? i mean.. i shouldnt believe that.. but i cant stop thinking of it. i mean IF, If there is only four more years to death.. wat can i do?
few days ago i actually dreamt about the real world's end. okay, this is wat i remember:

1stly, i was with my mom at a dark hall, for some reasons everyone is que-ing to get their passports, so are we. after getting our passport, we went out of the hall, the sky were in red color and i recall the buildings were the old shopblocks we have in Malaysia. and people were walking around.. so squeezy, in the street. all of the sudden, the floor cracks into zig-zags. it really scared the hell out of me!!! but my mom wasnt that scared, she walked slowly, eating her biscults that she hold on her hands... i was like MOM, ITS WORLD'S END, HURRY UP! n still, she was unaware. we reached home. my other siblings were at home too. then thunder zig-zag appeared at the middle of the reddish sky again...and i really dunno where to hide, wat to do.. the feeling is really....lets jus say, undescribable.. and i woke up.

i think from now onwards i'll hate all ZIGZAG stuff. LOL

and so... what if? what if it really happen.. what will you do?
i told my friends, i will buy one bottle of sleeping pills to keep me asleep so that i don have to fight with fears and i'll never wake up again.... i mean who can survive? even if u survive, no point living with no friends, no love ones, no internet, no music, no handphones, no games, no aircons, no electricity... basically.. NOTHING! and furthermore, u have to deal with each fears after u've survive...

but........ what if we only have 4 years??
i don wan to end my life with only routines in my life..
i want to visit NEW YORK, JAPAN, INDIA, AFRICA and so much moreeeeeeee...
not just visit, i may want to live in each country 1 to 2 years..
i want to live my life to the fullest!!!
i have too much dreams to be accomplish.....

the last thing, if 2012 really happens.....IF lar! (choi choi choi touch wood!~)
I, CHAN EVON, wants to take respects and glories with me and never wake up.

Vonster adores MJ

2009-11-05T11:02:00.002+08:00

i know its a bit late now, i nvr fancy Micheal Jackson before or after his death.
i loveeee him after i watched his last Movie, This is it.......
lots of 'no wonder, no wonder, no wonder'.. stuck on my head..
the movie is only about his last concert but it really inspires me alot alot alot alot....
i even watch the movie in cinema twice, i don mind watching it again...
awww.... such a good performer.

beat it!~~~ beat it~~~

the setting, the band, the lighting, the stage, the concept, the background and
THE DANCERS! WOOHOOOO!! so perfect!
*take note its just rehearsal only*
wat a waste that we didnt get to see the real concert!

during the dance audition, kenny said:
" the idea is to put the best fishes from different countries to a big pond."
(yeap! good idea! the dancers are wickeddddddd!)

MJ, who dont respect!?

vonster try model

2009-11-04T11:31:00.008+08:00

Everyone who knows me know, i'm so into modeling lately, no 3d modeling okay?
I, did it for FUN and I AM VAIN, thats all. also under these condition, great photographer and nice work. and i'm not afraid to try. (except for nudes)

p/s: i am not that pretty, my figure is normal, thats why i said i need really GOOD photographer. LOL

pics took by Devin Kho

fabulous makeup by Kpang

my fav picture of all set!
this is more like ME.

I'm impressed! its amazing!

i don usually look that good.

Devin kho = talented

pics took by ABBY
makeup by myself

outfit by KNG Gallery

i'm so excited for the launching of KNG gallery.

:):)

frankly, if i have a chance, i would love doing something like this,

cool huh? oh yeah! because she is lady gaga.

ok.. something like this, but not nude.

the best one would be,

with the real money (my own money)

yeeeeehaaaaaaaaaa!

Vonster's new room

2009-10-28T16:44:00.005+08:00

i'm not busy. i just dunno wat to blog about.
lots of things going on and i'm just lazy to blog....... lazy to type..
anyway, today is different, because i'm too boring at a point.
see... ID works are like that.. when job comes, u will be busy like there is no tomorrow,
after that, u only can wait for time to pass....and get old... and wait for responses.
and with a Manager like mine, who dun wanna run away from office?
i'm getting sleepy... and blotted, hence, i'm gonna start........ talking about something else!

HEY!!! I'VE GOT A NEW ROOMMMMMM!!!!
its my old room that i shared<-- with my sister for years and decide to cut into two so its really small! was struggling at 1st, finding my true self, what i really really like and want. and i came out with my own design. and i'm really really excited about my room since last month./ the plan was there two months ago and i didnt get renovate it because of 'ghost festival' and all kind of stupid excuses came from my family. this is how my room used to look like-----> march 2009
and this is how my room looks like NOW :)

the ceiling with cove lights

stickers of flowers i found at growing stars

sunflowers.

my money tree :):)

and.... to be continue!

the progress is: 90 %
Mirror is on and i love it so much!
only lack of build in table & shelf & sliding door.

p/s: i am waiting for geri to cook her 'unbelievable' curry mee....................slurpsss

Vonster's monday blues

2009-10-05T14:34:00.002+08:00

who dont crave for BED early in the morning ON MONDAY?
who dont crave for Public holiday on a Monday?
which youngster is not lazy on Monday?

sigh............ i wan my bed. i swear i am gonna get home straight right after i work.
bath, eat n watch tv and head to bed before 10pm. YES, THATS MONDAY
Yawnnnnnnnnnnmmmmmmm
@#$%^&*()#$%^&*(#$%^&*(*()%^&*(

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz i just wanna sleep......

Vonster love n hate curly??

2009-09-11T15:31:00.003+08:00

i never fancy curly hair since young. CURLY AS IN SOMETHING LIKE MAGGIE MEE? i will ask my guy classmate who has curly hair to straighten their hair back then. when i see a guy with curly hairy legs i will start plucking them not concerning about their pain. (i'm quite well-known for that as school) haha! but as soon as i saw this guy on TV,

CURLY HAIRS SEEMS GREAT~

AWWWW....HUGH DANCY!!

vonster love september

2009-09-05T13:19:00.002+08:00

i'm alone in the office, on the music as loud as i can!
OT-ing hard. hoping the rendering can be done as soon then i can hit the gym!
to the Saloon, color my hair.. pampering myself with some pendicure.
saturday afternoon for me is never boring! who dont love weekends??
After Color my hair, i will go back for a sleep and meet the girls and boys up for dinner and head on to our KARAOKE SESSION!!!
Awwww.... i love outings.. i am grateful that i am showered with lots of great friends. :):):)

who say Life's suck. its like how u see it! and how u appreciate every little things that happen.
and how strong is ur frequency that attracts//.

September is always the best month of every year for me.

Stupid for you.October 3rd, 2007 by vonsterz
9月2007年过得最充实，快乐! 可是，人总是那么贪心。当得到的越多，最害怕的就是失去。。有人问起，生日愿望是什么?我希望，我关心，相信，爱的人永远在我身边。! 不要消失。。

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20yrs old, still the same old phrase ‘not a girl, not yet a woman’nothing serious to worry about, what is left is ‘confusion’…in life.
(the post that i wrote in friendster two year ago)
2008?
wasnt that bad too... HAPPINESS ALWAYS FALLS ON SEPTEMBER!
my birthday month ^^

A BIG BIRTHDAY TO JOJO 1ST!SEPT8(i promise i'll make it up next yr for ur party)
and i can i forget CRYSTAL's big day TODAY? :)
i'll be going to fred and amanda's Bday on SEPT12.
Li sze at Sept20th(gonna surprise her!)
and MINE! and i am flying off to KK with those people that i love!
i knew a lot more ppl whose bday falls on sept.....
all the best to sept babies... hope u guys are as happy as i am!

p/s: cant help but love review the past of myself, the happy ones.

vonster n goldfish

2009-08-15T09:28:00.005+08:00

DARYL bought a 'batch' of goldfish back to office to fill our aquarium.

one of the goldfish was so cute that caught my attention

and i couldnt concentrate on work.

it swims like a shark with its fin on the surface of the water.

LOL!!

so cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee

but, the next day, all goldfish died for god know wat reason!

:( :(

Vonster's known as HARDCORE BLOGGER!

2009-08-12T09:25:00.007+08:00

look..... in this firm... i always need to look in the magezine
and keep update myself... thus, i always have lots of dreams

and this is my 2nd dream house~!

the exterior is jus very simple and garage is in basement.

i am jumping topic again***

LOVE YOURSELF FIRST, IF YOU WANT SOMEONE TO LOVE YOU.

(i dont have a camera on hand, so i jus simply shoot this with my lousy phone)

saw this in the magazine and i find it very meaningful.

*****************************************************************

last night i received two SMS from Jess and Liz,

both asking me to tune in the radio station.

and the next thing i heard was,

' there is a song dedicated to a friend, EVON EVON EVON!!!'

that really really really put smile on my face

:))))))))))))))))))))))))

so sweeeeeeeet

these two person is really special to me.

my 1st impression to Jess was,

oh!!! WHAT A MODEL........SUI!!!

until i really get to know her?
she is more than that! one of the smartest girl i know in my life okay?

and u will nvr feel bored when she is around.

LIZ! is one of a kind.

one word: VERSATILE!

I always believe, if u feel guilty or did a bad thing,

Liz can always make u a better person.

HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!!!!

with Jess and Liz, life is simply fun!

(am i advertising my friends?)

i always take apportunity to learn in my life,

(but din really apply it.. hehehe!)

and i shall say.. i learn a few really important stuff from them.

p/s: and li sze up next... ..my next epidsode. :P

Vonster lililala!

2009-08-11T10:37:00.005+08:00

many random things to talk about....hehehehhee

1stly,

weeeeee~~~~~

i feel like partying right after work!! HAHAHAHA!

nowadays i am so into designing my own budget low budget 'edgy' bedroom.

hahahhaha!

this is one of the chairs i wish i can get.

imitate ones also can okay!! as long as it looks like this:

i mean, my feeling was like... FELL IN LOVE AT THE 1ST SIGHT!

same goes to the 1st picture below!

i just like the style of the 1st picture,
if only i can, i will change the color to bright vivid colorful ones!
hehehehhehehe

and... didnt i show u guys my new working table?

result in, how can i not online everyday? rite?

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

okay.. end of randoness-
pls watch the next episode!

vonster back to 18

2009-08-06T15:36:00.002+08:00

my point is... i still feel like college student when doing

PRESENTATION BOARD!

enjoyable!

vonster's 突发奇想

2009-07-07T20:55:00.004+08:00

以前，我爱人
现在，我被爱。
都说被爱是幸福的，
有时却怕辜负了。

VONSTER'S reminder

2009-07-02T11:16:00.003+08:00

someone forward this to me................................

This is something we should all read at least once a week. (I don't know when it was written).

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.(cilaka!!)
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.(ahahhahahahahah wtf!!!!)
9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.(very very true!)
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.(lucinda's quote o_O)
19. It is never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.(my line!!!)
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.(i should remember this from this instance)
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

Vonster diving in lily allens song

2009-04-09T01:38:00.006+08:00

i love lily allen!!

i love almost every songs in her 2 albums.
last year i was so crazy about 'the littlest things'. that song made tears in my eyes,
very very inspiring!! i was in real excitement when the radio said that she release her 2nd album
her new album is really cool...especially her lyrics that reflects all the young ladies' perception towards life and emotions.and the mixture of music genre plays well and interesting!
love it love it! :):)

................i just receive a sms from colleague saying that i must be in icc 8:30am........................
WTF!!!!!! so early for what shit!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhh
4 more fucking days to go. i almost become a foreman more than a designer -_-
i'm not tired of working, just that its not smooth enough lately. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz
hopefully the booth will get lots of good compliments...(my boss is quite si ai bin)
everything will be fine~ CHEERSSSS

p/s: Are you mine? Cause I stay here all the time. Watching telly, drinking wine.

Vonster's dream

2009-04-05T16:20:00.002+08:00

i had a dream.
my dream explained all my 'uncertainty' in my reality life.
i find that its a sense of 'rebirth' or 'renew'.
'RE' same equals to letting go of the past.
its always about changing.

Vonster's changes.

2009-03-26T13:00:00.005+08:00

i wrote the resignation letter in my company,
i used company's PC,
printed it out using company's printer, ink and paper,
signed my name with company's pen.... guilty man..
As i walked along the corridor, i was still hesitating,
i turned into Doris room,
"serious?"....."comfirm....." i said.
i dont know is this the best or right decision for me,
but i deeply understand things wont happen if i dont make my first step.
this is life, people come and people go...

i guess the 1st thing that i will miss very soon is the company laptop that i'm using now.
i browsed through every documents and also went through some vain pictures...///

12.09.2008

still excited, still innocent haha!

14/10/2008

25/10/2008

06/11/2008

5/01/2009

15/01/2009

23/01/2009

24/01.2009

12/02/2009

20/02/2009

17/03/2009

25/03/2009

i din actually change much after all for the past 7 months on the appearance,
but inside... i definitely gain alot alot alot alot.............heaps :)

p/s:放开所有.....

Vonster's dreamland.

2009-03-20T12:34:00.002+08:00

usually when my 'emo' stops,
i'll start thinking about 'getaway'

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天啊~~太美了吧??
感觉到了吗?
轻轻的微风，淡淡的花香
滴滴的水声，吱吱的鸟叫声

现在只能靠想象......................................

如果有机会来到这里，甚至是一个人，
我一定会裸奔!!!!!!

p/s: 想象完了，好像去了一趟旅行........

Vonster's DIY

2009-03-14T14:47:00.003+08:00

hi, long time no vain.

Ever since i've been working in Fabrica,
i was desperately finding for un-use or leftover stuff
hiak hiak hiak~

few months back, my room looked more like a store room.
when i get to discover more about fengshui,
my laziness of cleaning and decorate the room went off!
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Vonster creates NOVe nahc

2009-03-07T17:17:00.004+08:00

somebody really need to force me!!

yesterday......
boss: you arh!! i don want to say already!!! ask you do things nvr do ON TIME!
evon: WHO SAY?
boss: where is my ICC booth design??? one more month to go you know?!
evon: I GIVE U TOMORROW THEN!!!!!(with 20%progress only)

therefore...

i dint go gym, i dint go shopping,

i dint go dinner with ingsiah and SM,

i dint Limteh with Tzin min and Hii wei,

i dint sleep early......

3d is not perfect, just so-so

at least,

HE WAS IMPRESSED!!

:):):)

Vonster's new toy!

2009-02-21T12:19:00.003+08:00

YEAH!! Yellow and Green crystals are unique okay??
tremendously gorgeousssssss.
my gift from Joanna. YEAH YEAH :):)
you wouldnt believe how beautiful they shine under the sun.
Awwww.. i hanged the yellow ball in my car,
and the green heart shape on my neck. hehe

dunno why i can easily obsess into certain things. hahaha
like out of nowhere, just a sentence or advise.
from a picture? all of a sudden.
OMG!!!
i should list down--->the things that i am addicted to during 2009:
1. Fengshui
2. Whatever in Red
3. Whatever in Pink
4. Crystals
5. Tarot 'toktok' by Kath
6. The Secret- Law of attraction
7. Gambling
8. nasi katok
9. Facebook
10. SmS

Update update

CHOW EVON is going to Kuala Lumper (not lurah) on the 7th May!!!

p/s: i want rihanna's tattoo!!

Vonster's valentines

2009-02-16T20:37:00.004+08:00

oh man, Valentine was good and bad :( and :)
that's all i can say.
without FF will be even better!!!

i really heart this picture,
Dont you think its very natural??
Hii Wei is my buddy since young.
Aawwww... Look at him!!!!
he was enjoying that moment dancing Tango with me.
hahahahahaahaa!!

Vonster talk Mag

2009-02-06T01:53:00.003+08:00

okayssss... from magazine, you learn alot.
you learn how to SHOP! and spend money.
through Mag, you learn how to dress up and make up.
you learn how to be ATAS people and you learn how to be picky and fish the right fish!
you learn where to get all luxuries and also how to appreciate it!
of cos, you learn to have better taste and you will never get satisfy!
in the end of the day, what i'm trying to say is,
those who dunno where to spend the money should spend on MAG 1st!

Vonster geksim.

2009-02-02T16:43:00.004+08:00

I dont buy magazine especially mags like Vogues, Female,

(those which are like very thick).

its like ure paying for advertisements,

and its ridiculously expensive//

Thus, since long time ago, i only borrow from my friend.

today, while hanging around at the stationaries shop,

catched my eyes was.......................................

"COMFIRM I NEED THIS!!!"

i told my colleague.

so, i was very very excited.

and i flip through every pages finding for this article.

Finally

(click to read)

its just only a one page article.
-_-

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Vonster's CNY 2009 part 2

2009-01-31T00:55:00.002+08:00

OH NO OH NO OH NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHERE IS ALL MY LUCK???!!
my money..............gone.............................................................
i promise i'm not going to gamble again, Sa Ki Gong!!! 害死人!!!
SOB SOB :''(
broke my fragile heart. ma derrrrrr

start working=reading magazine today.
didnt have much to do, still in holiday mood,
so.... i decide to take one more day leave and head off to Miri!
Yahoooooo!!!<--- shiok sendiri.
excited man, i know its going to be fun, because there's SALLY!!oh yea!

p/s: i know he miss me.

Vonster's CNY 2009

2009-01-29T06:00:00.004+08:00

its exactly 6 in the morning. its not because i wake up early, i gamble til morning.

what an exotic night!!!!!!

i started off playing around 12am,
then i win and lose and win and lose and win a bit only :(
and then again.. when i FINALLY REACH HOME,
it flood.....Zzzzzzzzzzzz
so again, i parked my car on the roadside
and swim back home. <--as in walk in the water. under the heavy rain! imagine...a girl with heavy eye bag, wearing black dress, walking alone in the dark<--------- Just like a ZOMBIE!!! HAHAHAHAHA

GONG XI FAI CHAI EVERYONE :):):):):):):)
SMILE SMILE AND WIN MANY MANY!!

P/S: 我刚刚又再胡思乱想了，为什么我爱念旧?arghhhhhhhhhhhh..........................................

Vonster feel great.

2009-01-25T14:29:00.003+08:00

Awwwwwwww................ what a beautiful sundayyyyyy~
makes me feel like LAVENDER and Pink Roses. hahahahaha!!!!
and why am i so happy again?? god knows.

p/s: off to gym!! i'll make sure its paying off end of the day. ^^ miss dear dear ler.

Vonster's 1st time.

2009-01-20T17:11:00.002+08:00

today, i think about 1st time. i have lots of 1st time recently,
1st time doesnt always mean sex okay?
As usual,
some '1st time' is painful, some are wonderful!
some '1st time' is attractive that u want to taste it but ur laobu say.. CANNOT!
sometimes, we wait for that '1st time' to happen, or either way, we made that '1st time' happen.
sometimes, '1st time' came naturally until i finally realised it and say.... what the!? or OH GOD!
(sophisticated)

The new 2009, i already have a few '1st time'
The '1st time' that i have recently are those that i dont want '2nd time'.
One of these '1st time', i cannot resist to have '2nd time'.
if there is too many times, SAD time occurs many times as well.
Some '1st time', u cant 'bear' to have 2nd time.
sometimes, when these '1st time' happened, i kept telling myself, pleaseeee no '2nd time'!!!
when i keep thinking of NO '2nd time', it came..... and so as 3rd time and 4th time.
Law of Attraction. No is not the word.(i reckon u guys should watch YESMAN)LOL jk!!
why cant i be serious? i'm always serious with the wrong person i guess...

p/s: coffeeeeeeeee............

Vonster's happy for GOD KNOWS WHAT REASON!

2009-01-17T01:05:00.000+08:00

by just doing some tarot count from IPOD.
Kate told me, i will be joyful with little little things todays. :)))
i wonder what's that little things, i'm so excited.
gonna love my day. 17.01.2009

p/s: feel like loving someone, anybody.. anyone needs my LOVEEE? anyone????hahahahahhaa!

Vonster reformat.

2009-01-14T13:03:00.004+08:00

hey.. i miss Nee Nee and JoJo. i wonder what are they doing.
As for me, i'm facing challenges each day over here at work.

p/s: i should be back on track.what happen to me with all these weird act?what is there to expect and what is there to gain?should i clear my mind... Come What May.

Vonster still bloody miss HER!

2009-01-05T23:35:00.004+08:00

i really miss MAY ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT ALOT!!!!!!
its really good to have someone who can have lots of shit things to crap about. and its like non-stop!

. . . . .

May 想瘦想疯了!!

████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
我最近身体出了状况~~
v o n says:
like wat/?
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
一直狂放屁~~~
v o n says:
hmm..
v o n says:
在新的一年里，
v o n says:
我祝你放屁放到瘦!
v o n says:
hahahahahahaha
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
肚粪ba??
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
hahahahhahahaha~~~~~
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
u so creative!!
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
if 放屁 can be slim
v o n says:
learn from u one baobeiii
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
我不介意做放屁虫！

. . . . .

May 的想象力超级丰富 !!

████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
tat day i also dreaming a lot WEIRD dream
v o n says:
wat is that?
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
tat day..i intro a girl to my fren ( he like 林保仪
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
ho...he try to 掀起她的裙子。。准备 fuck her...
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
n ho..i saw girl 的样子慢慢变成男生的样子。。。
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
n i ask her..y ur face like .. become 男生的?
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
n she said she cant do sauna....(桑拿)
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
she will become a boy when she do sauna...
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
Oh my god~~~
v o n says:
hahahah i think u miss me too much(because we use to do sauna together)
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
n tat time 林保仪掀her skirt liao ma..
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
i saw her 性器官~~~
v o n says:
wahhh
v o n says:
how isit look like?
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
like 心脏..got a sharp like 鸡琢。。n with 2 whole
████████████████████████████████████五月██████ says:
yer!!
v o n says:
eyerrrrrrrrrrrrrr
v o n says:
ur dream is always very weird
v o n says:
u this guai tai

(and then she began to draw)

v o n says:
WAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so grateful to have her as buddy. what a gift from the universe!!

Vonster's 2009 resolution

2009-01-03T12:43:00.003+08:00

once upon a time, there is a 2009. And its never too late to greet..
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!!! MUAKS!!!!!!!!!!!

and to reward myself, i bought a pink crystal bracelet and a feng shui roaster.

(another excuse of SSM-- 'simply spending money')
When i'm still lazing and mingling with my pillow and blanket this...erm.. afternoon..
SM called me up and said:
'DIDI is cooking, come over to Suting house.'
so.. i head over to Suting house and ate two bucket of rice... OMG!!! DIDI'S COOKING IS REALLY FABULOUS!!!! and because i didnt help up at 1st, they insisted me to wash the dishes.
and i cleaned the kitchen..... and i asked them to REMEMBER WHAT I DID TODAY!!

p/s: for the 1st time, i'm involved in mahjong, and for the 1st time, i think Poker is quite fun.. thanks to :)

Vonster blog

2008-12-29T23:33:00.006+08:00

when i am happy, i blog

when i am feeling uncomfortable, i blog

when i learn something new, i blog

when someone tells me something and it keep lingers on my mind,
i blog

when i have new resolution..... I.....:

Right! I dont want stuck there anymore,
whether at work, in relationship, physically, mentally??? whatever?
i want to move on! i want to have RESULTS or at least progress..
i want to gain something new everyday.
IT WILL NEVER GONNA BE ENOUGH!

Vonster beh song!

2008-12-26T22:54:00.003+08:00

when limteh is sitting at the showroom, studying fengshui whole day,
YIN silently sit on the jetplane and fly to KK.
ST is driving her prado to KK.

conclusion, i m so jealous.
SHIT!!

p/s: single bed or double bed? yellow or green?

Vonster's Xmas 2009

2008-12-25T23:38:00.004+08:00

hey. its xmas! and its a off day and i've been 'pigging' whole day long.sleep and eat and sleep and eat and sleep. i dun feel like going out.......prison break really did a great job!!! at least, it keeps my brain empty. hmm... seee, life's like this. i've always reminiscing the past during big days.
last XMAS---> 25 december 2007
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was memorable..
its like: ' Last christmas i gave u my heart................'
hahahaha.. not so dramatic lar.
Xmas Eve this year, i went to a house party, eat and drink and dance for a while
and then went home and sleep.

Z z z z z z z z z

maybe i should expect a better New Year Eve. hehe!

p/s: lately, i try to 'take-control' my dreams when i'm sleeping...

vonster's little thoughts

2008-12-22T14:17:00.006+08:00

He is in my head... not every time.. but randomly, out of nowhere.

:))))) i got to believe in the law of attraction. its getting real...

anywaysss, Chryll's off for two weeks and Riza is always out the showroom.
MUAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! this place is mineeeeeee...... no one can spy me anymore~
lonely is good at times. you know like, playing my own cds and sing out loud.//
drink some tea and read some magazines, do things slowly as it can be.
ARHH`` LIFE IS SO GOOD!

right, i'm going to betray my brother once again..
you know, my brother is so unlike any guy i met out there.
that day i saw him carrying a plastic bag with inside full of papers and cards?
he said, he's gonna make a Xmas card for his 'first' gf..

So, when he is not around...
i flipped through his yet to be done Xmas card.

and then i was startled.
i think he is creative.. at the age of 16.
there's nothing like, 'i love you'
'your my only one' or ' i want to be with you forever'
its not DIRECT at all!
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its not like a simple card you just write your meaningful sentences on.
cut and paste = sincere enough i say....
okay.... its more like he explained what's the purpose of Xmas
by showing some meanings of the words they use.

okay, if this one were for me,
i will presume that he already think that i'm one of his family member?

he wants me to be happy, joyful all the time?!?!
i'm just guessing only yea..

got talent lerrrrrr....

so got heart i say.
normal guys wont do that lor~~
they will just simply buy a bear bear or what to keep your mouth shut.

Awww.....
thats so sweet!
makes me think of Ah Sun...
struggling his head to get the idea of how to surprise Joanne
just to see the smile on her face, that just made him felt good. :>

p/s: its not lifeless, its a habit. it = online. OKAY? hahahahhaa

Vonster's workplace

2008-12-19T13:04:00.007+08:00

oh i just cant resist red color.
with the rose is even better!!!
and red is right infront of me everyday..
how am i 'se de' to leave?????

and this is a good example of.. small and big.
i love my working place. just love it!
despite all the dealing with some brainless customer and bad colleague in office blablabla....there's no way i can complain about the environment that i'm working in.
everyday i'm seeing beautiful things rather than just stationaries or tools,
i feel that i'm blessed!

its a showroom,
a workplace,
at times, you feel like its a small apartment.
i feel like home, i walk bare feet and put my legs up the chair.

i conquer the whole 2m x 1m dining table !!!
hahahahahaha!!
i really feel more comfortable with messy table,
i find it harder to find my stuff if they are place nicely together.

actually i'm quite flexible with my work,
i come to work late everyday..
(i haven change that very bad habit of 'Lai chuang')
and my boss is okay with that. luckily.

all the beautiful wallpapers from around the world are here ^^

office?? or dining?? or study area??
we dont know.. all in one.

the best part of the showroom.
COFFEE MAKER.. save my life!
there are two cassette air-conditioner here and is driving me crazy!
(limbeh cannot stand cold!)

chryll and william are best friends, thou they always quarrel..
they are my daily tv show. ^^

we dont have any extra petty cash for better xmas tree.
so kasian.. oour xmas tree is SKINNY!!!

i love pulling all the curtains and blinds up when its raining.
the scenery turns blue and the feelings are different!

tell me.. if u r von.. would u leave this place?
and go for a 'slightly' better pay job with strict environment?

Vonster is not single!

2008-12-16T14:44:00.003+08:00

very painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
i hate this one month one time! u GUYs will nvr understand our pain.

oh well... maybe Edward Cullen will understand?! u know.. he can read ppl's mind?
I FANTASY HIM! its been a long time since i last crazy about some tv guy.
i feel so 14 yrs old man... haha!!!

i was stunned there, right after his existence in Twilight
as if i had an electric shock straight to my eyes from his eyes. tsssssssssszzzz
how can someone be soooooooooooooooooooooooo attractive?? very amazing!
i really don mind being with this kind of angmoh!

hehei! its us... he said,
' from now on, you are my life...'

Vonster smelled some poo2!

2008-12-13T19:39:00.004+08:00

there is one song that i want to sing since last night,
ALL THE THINGS YOU SAID,
ALL THE THINGS YOU SAID,
RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD,
RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD!!!!

its inside my head and i will nvr forget.
another thing i love about myself is,
i can easily forget what happen last night and have another beautiful day.
i'm fragile but in other way, i admit i'm strong!

thanks for scolding me, thanks for waking me up from walking into the devil side
thanks to you FF!
there are lots of moments that i couldnt stand on my point and explain,
because you completely oblivious of how i feel.
and that doesnt mean that you WIN!!!
hide yourself in your holes!

Vonster's lalala

2008-12-11T15:35:00.003+08:00

cant you see? i'm trying to be grateful for what i have now.
hehe. :))))))

its okay to not having Love, i can always VISUALIZE IT.

Vonster mood swing

2008-12-04T11:04:00.004+08:00

today is beli free. nothing to do. i start thinking again...
some facts about VON...
sometimes i dont understand why, in a second i can be very very hyper, another second my mood seem dropped onto nowhere. are you guys the same as i?! actually, i'm a very simple person, tiny tiny stuff can satisfy me. so its not hard to see the smile on my face, somehow in a way, its not easy to keep the 'smile' too.

recently, i like orange-red

the other day, Yin were asking me:
"what are the things u love and hate about yourself?"

didnt have much thought of it.. i answered:

love myself..hmm..... i dont know.....

hate myself..... indecisive, soft hearted, too weak, too straightforward and scare to be alone and and and......................
(i remember there's a lot more..)

now i realised, i cant even 'sell' the good points of myself to others, how can i expect ppl to like or love me, when i dont even appreciate of what i am.. from our conversation, i once again confirmed that, i'm a low confident person(even sometimes i act confident) -_-

Now, i'm trying hard to think what i love about myself...
hmm.........................................................................................

1) easy-going and flexible.
2) not stubborn.
3) can forgive and forget in a very short period of time.
4) easily enjoy myself.
5) i'll be there if my friend say they need me.
6) good listener. (not a good adviser)
7) appreciate and thankful for whatever ppl gave me :)
8) do not get jealous easily. <-- to make it clear, sometimes i will argue because i think its unfair or incorrect doesnt mean that i'm jealous okay.
9).............................................can find 8 points is consider not bad, at least there is improvement.

Von still admires Von
: )
^^

Vonster see F4

2008-12-01T11:50:00.000+08:00

vonster took MC

2008-11-28T16:28:00.004+08:00

i'm having an incredibly good mood (even when someone deliberately LOVE spoiling my mood) due to the flawless weather outside!! and.. sleeping at home until you wake up naturally is OH MY GOD nice! 'long long one time' public holiday myself is great!

sometimes, i feel like i am having a wrong conversation with someone,
but i couldnt helped it. Despites all that 'accident' Info spilled the voice of his, didnt affect me much today :) however, to bring out the past is one step of the confirmation to further our distance, i deeply understand this, at last! NICE SHOT~ its good to make it clear, althou it hurts VON's delicate heart, WORTH IT LAR.. haha..

AND AND AND.. HARRY POTTER'S EPISODE 6 is going to be release July 2009????
still a long way to go.. but i'm dead excited OKAY?!?!?!
i've been loving every episode of Harry Potter since secondary lo.. just that i didnt continue reading the sixth book and jump straight to the ending of the 7th episode (last one). HAhahahhaa! WAITING FOR YOUUUUU

vonster zai hu

2008-11-25T16:01:00.001+08:00

why am i reading this? why why?!
sob sob~
FOR THOSE WHO ONE LEG STEP TWO BOATS!
U WILL REGRET! HAHA~

Vonster been dreamed~

2008-11-24T15:12:00.002+08:00

May says: last night i dream of u..u know
May says: i dream of...i meet u in ID exhibition..
von says: hahahahaa
May says: u juz pretty..coz ur body like model body..
von says: aiyohhhhhh
von says: got o not??
May says: n ..i also c 吴尊
von says: wat the?!
May: n 吴尊 trying to kiss me!!
von says: R u sure its wu chun?
von says: go die lar, thats impossible
May says: and..NEE NEE also...
May says: nee nee buy a lot donut.. n i keep eating donut non stop after exhibition
von says: hahahahahahahhahahahahaha
von says: wat the hell??
May says: ya lo!!
von says: how could that be possible???
May says: hahaaahahah~~
May says: 吴尊 that part more 夸张
von says: what happen?
May says: 他嘟起嘴巴。。。像要强吻我yeh!
May says: yer
May says: 恶心！
von says: oh god~~~
May says: 这什么梦啊！！
von says: .............................u got problem....
May says: 想不到他也垂涎我美色！！
von says: HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAH!!!
May says: 那时候。。我们像各自坐在自记得小bom bom 车那种。。
May says: 他加快速度。。。在我旁边搭讪。。
May says: 然后就嘟起嘴巴~~~
von says: wat isit in conclusion?
von says: u lik wu chun one meh?
May says: i dun like wu zhun
May says: but all people is your friends...
May says:tat's the main point
von says:................thats mean u miss me alot :>

Vonster's best wishes

2008-11-22T01:14:00.006+08:00

My best wishes today is for Siao Mei the Sex Maniac
just came back from centrepoint. WHat a looooooong day......
didnt notice its already 1am. its exceeding my sleeping time.
my day werent that great. work hasnt been that smooth as i thought it was.
and i felt exhausted with some messages.. i felt innocent?!
well, things settled anyway..
so~~~ i forget everything and held my way to PARTYYYYYYYYY
like drink, DRINK, DRUNK! and Games? and there was my favourite~ the dare game!
(picture will be posted up like real soon) haha~
Siau Mei had her big day today at the hotel, everyone were having a good time i can see..
She is enjoying herself, thats for sure!
Happy birthday toooooooooooooooooooooooo youuuuuuu~
anyways....I MISS MY NAIL!!!!!!!
oh my baby. i wonder how long it takes for u to grow back. T.T
i am like stuck in the middle, having this dilemma feelings...
now my toe looks weird without the nail, i cant do nail polishing and i can stick any fake one on it.. (as it may be a distraction for the new nail to grow) and i heard i had to give efficient allowance of air for my toe (and i cant wear shoes all the time) so that my toe can grow faster...Oh god~ my Toe is like rotten and so ugly and i cant do anything about it! HELP!!!!!!!!!!
grow faster pls...YES PLS.... FASTER!!! FASTER BABY!!!!!

Vonster's sleepy

2008-11-18T15:49:00.007+08:00

when u r busy, u complained, when u r free, u said u r boring,
there is never a satisfaction or ending.
i'm finally BUSY and its for works ^^ and i nearly had my head explode but THANKFULLY, the client was pleased with the designs (: and ------>its OVER............. woohoo!!!!!
and there is Pauline, guiding and feeding me all the way. HAHA...
and i know there will be new freelances coming up real soon.. which is always a good thing.
however, i really need time to exercise.. u know... swimming? aerobics? some new tryouts rather than the usual basketball and yoga. i've already get bored of it.

Just now, i yawned infront of a client............ oh man, and i feel so comfortable for it and i produced a 'arghhh~~~~~~~~' sound.......embarrassing, its really out of my control.
frankly... i need to have a good sleep.. its not enough! everyday 1am to 8am. 7 hrs are too little for me. i need 10 hrs a day, but somehow... my body thinks sleeping is wasting of time, always.. i reach home around 9 or 10, get a shower and ready to go to sleep and then......the devil side of me will goes like->"how bout a little bit of HK drama plus a bowl hot mee?"
(thats why i get fat).

Vonster is hot

2008-11-13T15:44:00.002+08:00

The weather here in Brunei is so mother fucking HOT until i can melt okay...
and dunno for how many times in the car on the way to site visit, i complained the same thing over and over again to myself:
' WAHLAOOOOOO, HOU LAN CHAT YIT ARHHHH!'
how i wish my body is HOT too= Sexy....
the weather is Hot but i'm still Fat. I just went to the Loo and dunno for what reason i lifted up my shirt and look at the mirror and i was like..."oh NO!!! am i pregnant?".. impossible.. there shouldnt be a reason to. Usually when i woke up in morning, my stomach will be flat.....kla.. not flat lar..'Almost' flat ok? then after one meal or two, it will turn A BIT bouncy. But BUT but... now, its like a ball, its harden....like for the whole time?! just like someone who is pregnant for two months. HOLY JESUS what has happened to ME!!!???HELP!!!!! this nvr happen before i swear..............somemore I go to Yoga and Basketball like from monday to thursday? HOW CAN?
Grrrrr.... and all of them are those very hardcore training looo..
i'm so sad! when i can be HOT by not standing under the sun? like originally HOT^^?
like 'WAH!! SHE'S HOT!"<--- you know what i mean?! Suan ler.. its too deep for u guys to understand..

Vonster sing 最动听

2008-11-08T10:52:00.006+08:00

i know i'm a hardcore blogger. hehe!
this morning i woke up having this long lost song singing on my mind,
and i dont know why..............// must have dream about the past.

its was 3 or 4 yrs back, when i was still in high school...
Awwww........./....thinking back those times at school, everything was Sweet
i met LH, this song was the 'HITz' song of our batch that time.
i still remember every little single things that happened :))
Sweetest memories we had, even its already the past.

hao ting hao ting....... mmmmm........... Von is enjoying

vonster's reminisce

2008-11-06T15:41:00.009+08:00

(previous post was having some problem, i redo this post again.)

someone: u working?
me: yes. of cos.
someone: why u online so often?
me: ................................

/// what do u expect? working in brunei?
i badly need a new job. my current job is not challenging :<>DREAMING.

i always see Jo or Lu posting their "Weekend must Photoshoot" pictures on their blog,
some ppl may think 'VAIN'~ but they dont know, photoshoot is actually fun!
so i say, they just jealous. haha!

VON'S LATEST BEH PAI SEH SELF-SHOT.
don like that, don puke..
i know u jealous. hahaha!
geezzzz....nothing to do wahhhhh

i particularly had very deep impression of me nee and fung's outing session.

and i actually still remember the process of us taking these pictures...... quite memorable.

thats me and nee and fung,

having our first craziest night one yr ago.

and putting of random or meaningful text in picture was a trend!

zombie coming to town.

i damn like to pose, SERIOUSLY....

and these pictures from friendster brought me back to the time,

and there, nee nee and jo jo suddenly filled my head.

i called them my BABIES.
those were the days,
we had fun, we had arguement, there were tears and laughters,

i felt so comfortable having them by my side.

time flies.//.......................................

so sad. ):

its still gonna be perfect if they can both be on my side.

and then, ohhhhhhh!
how can i forget?

my partner May.
no wonder we are in the same gang,
same VAIN.

no doubt, class and pyramid are always the place where we always take pictures.

silly silly picturess
if one of us is absent in class, the other one will be bored to death/.

i love her jokes, she understand mine as well.

we hardly quarrel, because we know each other well,

its damn easy for me to make her happy. hiak hiak hiak!

i guess i just need to pose like this,
then she will say, 'evon ah!!!!!! hen tau yen ni lerrrrr....'
then she will....'hahahahhaa!' (smile smile:)

having to know her is one of the best part of my life!

now everyone has their new lives, new friends.
so am i,
gonna wake up from DREAMING, I BADLY NEED A NEW JOB!

2008-11-02T20:31:00.003+08:00

never thought that Jazz can touches one's heart.
i used to think that Jazz is just a boring genre of music.
One evening, Pauline was there in my showroom...
' are u free tonight?wanna go for a Jazz concert, ITS FREE'
WOOOO.... free<-- what an attractive word.
'okay, i shall just tag along. ^^'

i was not excited about the concert, just wan to fill something for my lonely night.
we reached Rizqun by 7pm and sat there listening attentively until it was 9:30pm
the show went fabulous!
it was so inspired that we didnt noticed that we actually sit there for more than 2 hrs?
no one is singing or dancing but the instruments,
saxophones, electric guitar, piano, bass and drums.
what a wonderful combination!
the talented band - Unit Asia
consists of three japanese, one malaysian and one thailand.

live band is good, concert is good!
jazz is good!

another announcement to make,
i'm back to single

Vonster's end of Oct

2008-10-30T10:23:00.005+08:00

i asked wenya,
which one do u prefer?

got bf but dont look got bf
or
no bf but look got bf

at the end we conclude,
BOTH SUCKS!

anyway, we attended the Halloween party held in the Yatch club last saturday,
interesting, everyone dressed differently,
its more like a costume party than Halloween.
everyone in brunei cares to be Glamour in party not Scary.

My girls group planned to be Pirate,
and there were different 'team' rather than 'theme' in us.
crews, the captain, princess on the ship, plan maker?
etc etc

thats cindy, katherine, wenya, anna and me.
Cheers for Pearl the ship!

when i looked at Wee, i think of Jay chow.
bu yong ma fan le, bu yong ma fan le,
cowboy was busy that night.

organizer of the night, wen yee
dead japanese student, Corpse.
COOL

Awwww... my favourite of the night.
the DARLIE Kok Fui!

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and then i went to KL= Kuala Lurah with the KBs.

posing like jolin tsai.
got kah? at least 80% look alike. LOL

thats ivin, janice, ah ying, sally,
all the way from Kb to Kl to eat chicken wings and drink cheap beers

thats Sally, i like sally, Sally is rocker.

yea. dunno why i found firecrackers in the car,
and play along with it in KL.

and there was the night we went to Senja, to have dinner.
and there was the night i had at least 4 or 5 kiddy meals free, from each of them.
steaks, grill fish and chicken and red wine
yummy!

Ah mei is in my 'fifth most trusted friend' list.

at the end of the night,
i was stoned, not because i drink alot.
but i ate too much!

vonster's miserable sunday

2008-10-26T17:14:00.004+08:00

arghhhhhh........................... BORING SUNDAY!
its raining, and i cant go to the beach. WTF!!
I AM NOT HAPPY and i need to be single!

bored until i go friendster and look for questions like these again
-_-|||

1)Would you spend the rest of your life with your current partner?

♥ no .

2)Would you kiss the last person you kiss?

♥ yes .

3)Are you crushing on someone?

♥ yes .

4)Have you ever liked/loved someone so much that it hurt?

♥ hurt deep deep .

5)Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?

♥ yes .

6)Are you happier single or in a relationship?

♥ currently, i think single is a good idea .

7)Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn't mean it?

♥ no, i say n i mean it.

8)Have you ever had your heart broken?
♥ always .

9)Have you ever broken someone's heart?

♥ rare?hmmm..

10)Talk to any of your exes?

♥ oh pls, thats a nightmare for me .

11)If you could go back in time and change 1 thing, would you?

♥ yes, who dont? wished that i didnt give in too easily .

12)Think any of your exes, feel the same?

♥ not anymore.

13)Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?

♥ yes, i am very confident to be a good gf.

14)Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?

♥ it depends .

15)Do you want to get married?

♥ after 30 yrs old

6)Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?

♥ no, unless he tells me that he dont have one.

17)Have you told anyone you'd marry them

♥ forget.

18)Do you think you'll wind up with the person you are dating or crushing on ?

♥ how bout a wind down?.

Vonster irritate kevin

2008-10-23T13:42:00.004+08:00

von.addictive says: bitch
von.addictive says: i might be coming to kl again
someguynamekevin says: 4 wat?
someguynamekevin says: dun call me
someguynamekevin says: hahahahAHah
von.addictive says: i will~~
von.addictive says: i know where ur house is :>
someguynamekevin says: leaveee mee alonene!!! nononono~!
von.addictive says: unless u hide in ur office all day long
someguynamekevin says: leaaaavvee memeeee alloooonnneee
someguynamekevin says: aAAAaaarrrgghhhhh
someguynamekevin says: nnoooooooooooooooo
von.addictive says: muahhahahahahha
someguynamekevin says: anyway why r u coming back 4?
von.addictive says: TO LOOK FOR KEVIN
von.addictive says: TO HAUNT KEVIN

KL I might be coming againnnnnnnnnnn
HAHAHAHAHAHA

Vonster's thoughts

2008-10-20T11:08:00.004+08:00

there were lots of thoughts yesterday. Sweet thoughts.
i was happy. but today i'm confused.
when i first woke up this morning, the thing that came across my mind was,
'OH SHIT, AM I NOT SINGLE ANYMORE?!!!!'

Vonster met someone new!

2008-10-11T15:50:00.002+08:00

let me clarify. its a lady...
She's Pauline who is 41 this year and is a mother of two.
and she is still Hot and Fashionable,
couldnt believe we actually 'tea-ing' for hours and had so much to talk.
and after that, i felt so grateful that i've known her.
She is another 'Jackson' who can make me LISTEN and LEARN
when i say Learn, its not like learning 3dmax or how to be a good person or friend or girlfriend.
its like doing some little things that can make my life different! ^^

Vonster's KL trip 2

2008-10-10T02:03:00.011+08:00

peepz.
i'm back. back to the same old place doing the same old thing.
i am very very down.... everybody should know why,
Yes... i miss everyone in KL... EVERYONE!!
and now here i am, looking at the pictures posted in Facebook over and over again.
Godness!! i've been tagged for more than 100 pictures!!! wahlao! break record woo woo!
i'm reminiscing the times when everyone's enjoying.
Ay! why time passed in a blink?
My KL trip is like a dream, and now i'm awake. it was short!
At 1st i saw kev and jus, then it was poppy,
there was May, the next day Nee n JO,
and then there was Velvet, i saw Lucinda, Yuyang and co
and there were Brunei friends like Esther, Tzin min,
Hii wei, Andrew, Chee Yuen, Yii Wen, Wendy and co...
i know there are somemore...familiar faces as i said.
Let continue, there was donkey lost of passport and i couldnt sleep for the whole night,
woke up the next morning did research on Malaysian Immigration on googles.
And then Kev called me and said passport found! and i was so happy and i carried on with graduation ceremony, and there... EVERYBODY!
lecturers, staffs, college mates and whose whose parents
Awww....
and then there were wearing of robes and mortarboards... and camwhorings!!
and then Akmal was asking
'hey Evon, lets go COCO after the ceremony dinner!'
'COCO???u mean coco banana(its a club in sunway)' i asked.
'Abuthen? COCO CRUNCH???' Akmal said sarcastically.
and then there were laughters.
and then Coco Banana went wild and was filled with FULL of graduates!
and then there was ALICE!!!!!!!!
and then there was Pavillion and drinking session with Lu Jo n YuYang.
and then there was Jackson and steamboat!!
and then there was dinner with May and Jimson at kimgary
there were sing Ks with Babies and lain lain lagi and there was clubbing again........

WOW! FULLY DETAILED. my interior layout plan also nvr been that DETAIL before. LOL!

and then there were PICTURES!!!
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i really had a great time =>
it was fun meeting u guys.

Lets save money for the NEXT trip!

Vonster's back KL

2008-10-06T17:28:00.004+08:00

these nights went blasting!
like they said, i'm the bird released from the cage, just couldnt wait to party!!!!
Never really mention anything that's really detail in the blog, this time i should~
i reached KL at 11pm, after settling my luggage, i head off to Poppy with Kev and Jus to meet May and co. Awwww... the first 'sip' is always amazing, my first SIP to clubbing was ultimate!
muahahaha!! And seriously i've been missing May like fucked ever since i went back brunei, someone who can joke around with me...hehe! held her tightly when i saw her!
The next day, i met the babies Jo n Nee for lunch. Jo is still the same, Nee is getting aunty..
geezzzz... she used to be dead HOT! nvm still have the beautiful heart.
been yamcha-ing for the entire afternoon, having our girl's talked and gossip like GOSSIP GIRLS?hahahhaha!! its been a long time, love talking to both of my babies, still the same BABIES!!!after that i went back to have a nap and got ready for VELVET!

All the familiar faces i see, familiar place
KL frens Brunei Frens,
everyone partying together,FUN!
n i saw a long lost fren, LUCINDA
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got some pictures from her blog.
party party girls!!

yo its JO! thanks for everything!!!!

Lu, glad to see u ^^
stilll see the cuteness in you!

these are all the pictures i have for now
i know there are stilll plenty of them...
(limbeh forget to bring my own camera)
so have to chase the others burning cd of pics for me

October 5,
Graduation Ceremony

the only flowers i got from JO n Justin

hahahaa

Yuyang my little boy graduates too!

guess its whose birthday?
Not Me of course!
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Nee nee!!
i was the loudest singing Birthday in front of so many parents,
hope u appreciate it darling!

once again,
best wishes to you Nee!

happy yea!

just cant stop eating!
dead hungry after the ceremony thing

Ning Lee,
she is the one having the special personality
with the sweetest smile.

oh shit, i'm so lack of pictures
there are still like alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot alot of pics!!
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to be continue..........

Vonster's Celebrity Collage

2008-09-27T19:13:00.002+08:00

OH MY GOD!

WHAT IS MY FACE GONNA DO WITH STEPHEN CHOW and bloody TONY JAA(who is he)?

LOL... at least there is no XU ZHI AN.

and i look like most HK divas, glad to know that.

SAMMI SHUQI enough liao..

hahahhahahahhahahahahaha!!!

Vonster's birthday

2008-09-25T18:23:00.003+08:00

Yo shortie its your birthday!
OH YEAH! i am 21 yrs 'young'.
i'm officially an adult now!!

i love surprise!!

exactly one year had passed again

what was i doing last year?!

i could nvr forget =>

thanks to all!

i'm happy for all the singing on the phones and public and office.

Vonster's announcement

2008-09-23T11:14:00.003+08:00

oh god.. ITS NEXT WEEK!
cant wait for my trip back to KL
started count down, 9days more
see u party people soon, real soon!

(text in red, see how excited am i,
please be alert!)

vonster's relief 2

2008-09-15T16:43:00.002+08:00

since young, i've been told

'its okay to fall, learn to stand up'
sounds old and lame, but at times, it helps.
couple of 'bitches' i need to bitch about.....
wish it reminds me all the time so that it won fail me next time.

hate that i am sensitive, but couldnt stop it.
hate that i am weak in expressing myself,
hate that i didnt know how to communicate,
hate that i am lazy to plan for what i want.
hate that i didnt give it a try for things i always wanted.
hate that i give up too easily hate that i think for nasty and useless shits!

i found another way to get relief..
that is, take a deep breath and imagine...
imagine that when i open my eyes,
this is what i see.

now i'm hoping and TRYING for the best and never want to look back.

Vonster's weird

2008-09-03T19:22:00.002+08:00

OMIGOD..
i don know why am i so happy with just a few words!
i hope time pass slowly by now!
slow and steadyzz

Vonster got hope!

2008-08-20T13:59:00.002+08:00

Get this article from a forward mail and it brighten up my day after reading it.
it is made for emo people like me, hehe!

A good read, worth havin' a look at.
Adrian Tan, a litigator from Drew & Napier and author of the teenage textbook.

'Life and How to Survive It'

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It's a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.

My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.

On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you've already won her heart, you don't need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You're done learning.

You've probably been told the big lie that 'Learning is a lifelong process' and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters' degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don't you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they're wrong.

The bad news is that you don't need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You're in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I'm here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There's very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you'll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they're 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn't meet their life expectancy.

I'm here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it's calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don't need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life's a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don't expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term 'Karoshi', which means death from overwork. That's the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there's nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There's a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are 'making a living'. No, they're not. They're dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan 'Arbeit macht frei' was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn't do that, I would've been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don't imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I'll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don't, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I'm not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It's not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it's often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one's own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn't say 'be loved'. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one's looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We've taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn't happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don't, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don't work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

You're going to have a busy life. Thank goodness there's no life expectancy.

i had the worst month or week or days ever.. i am negative minded,
i get sensitive easily, i cant take criticism, i'm as sticky as a glue
i wake up in the middle of the night, thinking of those unnecessary shits
having my brains full of his shadows,
Yes, i am trying hard to let go.......

Vonster's realizing

2008-08-17T15:44:00.003+08:00

一双铁翅膀送我到这地方

天快亮，更舍不得离开
缓慢的游荡在拥挤的路上
风一样......
多少荧光屏总是闪烁不停
天与地，在中间它来临
缓慢的路上

有否我期待的，一个你
忘记你说你会继续，还是要结束
分开时只管哭
我是否太迷糊，你是否仍在乎
等得太久不想继续，也不愿结束
分开时我走出最遥远的旅途
最缓慢的脚步
一杯热咖啡抵不住我的累
他是谁在拥抱的是谁
缓慢的流泪我没有太伤悲
我以为.......

vonster dreaming

2008-08-11T13:24:00.003+08:00

i am stress, as i think i cant catch up with the others as i'm still new in the company.
i am not busy, how i wish the sales team can put trust on me and assign me some projects.
learn learn learn.. but i think i'm still slow... i do research and look at all the samples Fabrica can have.
Just a week i started working in this company, i've already been dreaming few nights about curtains and wallpapers. The 1st few nights, my dream were just casually about me choosing the patterns at showroom.. now it has developed into something like curtains on my own blanket? with layers? and u can change the patterns by photoshop in real life? oh my god~ tats so crazy.. my imagination is superb. Maybe tonight i will dream myself cover up and strangle by giant curtains.
SCARY~

Vonster's pain!

2008-07-29T16:35:00.003+08:00

there is always rainbow after the rain.
its time for me to blog about this, because i've already recover from my pain

my baby was born two weeks ago,
she is lovely adorable and sexy.
i admired her for hours when i first met her,
i touched her so tenderly that i scare i would leave fingerprints or a single dust on her
i cuddle her and say 'i love you' before i sleep,
that is how much i love my baby that i could have never imagine.

two days later, it was a saturday night.....
i bring my baby out for a 'walk' to my friend's birthday party.
as usual, she's still the red apple of my eyes.
she 'walked' well and she was stunning pretty under the moonlight.
at that moment, i thought i was the happiest human on earth...

As we were 'walking' our runway steadily,
what i remember is,
these was a sudden brake
and then there were forces coming from behind
what i heard is 'BANG!'

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baby, mummy's heart broke into pieces
its my fault, i can't even protect you
just a two days, i sent you to hospital.
i haven even take one nice picture of you and the 1st picture i took for you
is this????
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sniff sniff sob sob
someone please feel my pain?

Vonster's working chart

2008-07-14T16:20:00.004+08:00

Its JULY 14. its half a year gone!
and i've been working for a month already.

Still remember Vonster's Employed entry?
i mentioned: 'i'm working from 8:30am to 5:30pm and i will be a good girl'
i thought i am, but now instead of a DESIGNER
i'm just another unproductive lazy fat OFFICE girl
Pls note that, ini bukan my problem......
some friends are curious, why am i online and how can i be so flexible with time
as if i got nothing to do... oh yes~ i got NOTHING TO DO!

1st week of working

2nd week is about the same

3rd week of working

4th week of working