mesmerized

2012-02-17T14:40:00.000+08:00

if i know how to write a song, i will write about my feelings now....
anyone can be Adele, maybe we are not determine enough.

Okay. Just of have to focus on what i like to do now.
i have new hobbies that will keep me very busy. :)

And Holidays are over!

2012-02-07T16:32:00.002+08:00

CNY 2012 is over. No more reason to Slack. No more excuses. Its time like this i remind myself to work harder and be productive. Feels like so many things happened during January, i have a job offer. Took me a while to decide. Didn't handed it too well... appreciate all the comments and helpful advise but i know i already have the answer in my head before i asked, just wanna check on what everyone else think.

So, what's next?

Place hunting.......... i believe i work so hard just to make life happier and easier.
Get a diving license...... Get a Camera and more Traveling and also EARNINGS.
Each year it becomes simpler and simpler.
Finding what makes me happy and DO IT.
Create and Renew my Wishlist.
Hope ALL things get so much Better.

There is a lot of things i still cannot afford 'yet', but most of all....... i cannot afford any dramas and time wasting anymore. I don't need anymore new friends.

Lets do this 2012! gimme an A plus!

End of 2011

2011-12-20T09:54:00.000+08:00

11 days more to 2012.
every end of the year i asked myself, have i achieve any of my resolutions?
answer is: i cant even remember whats in my resolutions. Maybe i havent set any GREAT goals this year.
i guess maybe ive done more than half of them, should be glad.

I've been lazy, didnt update my blogs, havent really write any journals and i sure my hasnt improved writing skills had gone worst.. but i am sure ive done something fulfilling this year... i remember:

1) i had my pay raised. i am happy disregard of 'how i get it'
2) traveled to Langkawi, Singapore, KK,Kuching, Taiwan. <--- at least there is a new country over there.
this year, i didnt travel with May, i travel with my other best friend and love, Deno. Its equally fun. :)
3) things happened, but i've got several freelance jobs just like a 'click'. i am sure if i was more hardworking.. i could've done more.
4) better working performance. Won a few projects at work.
5) Girlfriends!!!!
6) Understandings between Me and Deno
6) Clearer goals for next year and future.

Those are the great things.. of course there were couple of money lost and small accidents and dramas which gave me so much lesson learned. Overall, it was a bad as i thought, it was very very relaxing. But i am sure next year 2012 will be a GREAT YEAR for me! i am looking forward for a new start and hopefully a new beginning!!!

Merry Xmas and Happy New year!

Basketball Court Converted to Fantastic Home

2011-09-23T13:58:00.000+08:00

Basketball Court Converted to Fantastic Home

next time i think i am just gonna buy an old basketball court or badminton court and convert it as my office or a house.
This article is so inspiring and special.

Gallery

2011-09-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Few days ago, i was asked to transform these space (below) into another 'theme'.

Hacking must be minimal. This is an area for XXX ministry building to showcase Brunei to foreigners. Or we can call it a MINI museum.

Before: to showcase each Departments' Uniform and display

This is what i came out with...

A total new LOOK.


A New Reception and more modified showcase area

i love playing around with ceilings with different shapes.

Rather than a plain wall, i add strips of wood for textures and levels.


Black goes well with any color. I like the invention of interactive TV, save space and printing for posters. And its much more interesting and better quality to see pictures on TV.

More and more projects coming up and i really want to do my best and finish everything before my holiday!!

Testing blogging from android.

2011-09-17T10:54:00.001+08:00

Woww.... I've been waiting for this eversince smart phone were introduced. My blog is like my diary that can attach pictures conveniently.
Now i know what to do during my free.time waiting for something....

Published with Blogger-droid v1.7.4

HAPPY

2011-09-16T16:32:00.008+08:00

I’ve always wanted a dog because they are loyal and I have seen how smart they are with my own eyes. Last year around June, a friend’s dog gave birth to puppies. All of them look the same but strangely my eyes only met one puppy. Looking at her brown eyes, I fell in love. I brought her home to see my other family members. She wasn’t shy at all, running and tripping around like a rolling marsh mellow, couldn’t get our eyes off her. From then on, i decided to name her ‘HAPPY’. And yes, she never fail to put a smile on each of my family member’s face.

First time i brought her to my room....she pee-ed.

Mom love her the most, she's like her little baby..

they shares the same bday.

The happiness HAPPY gave us.

This is when i have to wake up 6 am in the morning to bring her to do her BUSINESS

When Happy was younger, she has brown furs and white paws!

Happy is not a smart dog, but she is kind.
She shares her food with rats and cats when we are not around.

Happy love being loved...-typical CANCER.

i still remember how she was pampered by JHA that day...
it was the best day of her life
as you can see from the picture below
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.......
'i dont wanna go home......'

And then she met DENO,

A picture take by Deno personally...

One of her favorite person in the world,
as he is the only one who has patience to teach her tricks
and punish her when she is naughty.

Happy loves to go on a ride in my car.
She loves the Wind......

the only time that she can really FLY...

Happy's first toy that involved money.

and she lost it. :(

so i gave her my old toy.....it was a tough decision...

after almost 7 months, she learned how to SIT...
When she turned ONE, she learned how to sit ON a chair.
Ah Son taught her how to.

During Happy's One year old birthday....

Her presents.

Pet don ask for more.

I love the fact that she is the only one who will welcomes me home everyday,
LOVE us unconditionally no matter what happened.
The only one who dont take things personally regardless of anything.
Reminded me to do the same.... how strange......
why cant we do the same to people that we love?

She keeps us Happy in too many ways that it’s impossible for me to write it in a short time. It is very strange feelings how animals cannot speak our language but them can feel what we feel.

She is exactly the pet that i always dream about when i was younger. :D i wish i can give her more than i can... a big compound for her to run......

THANKS TO THE UNIVERSE.

If It’s Important, You’ll Find A Way. If It Isn’t, You’ll Find An Excuse

2011-08-24T14:53:00.002+08:00

Some people dream of success, others make it happen. Of course, you can dream as much as you like but waiting for things to happen gets you nowhere. Get active and start making things happen.

Whatever journey your path takes you on, the most important thing is to have passion in what you do.

How many of you went to college, got your degree, and ended up doing something totally unrelated to your major? Studying it did not make you passionate about it. It wasn’t your path.

Education or even talent aren’t worth much without passion. So do the stuff that you love and you've always wanted to do because without it, you'll feel stuck and unfulfilled. If you work in a bank but your dream is to be a naturopath, then make those changes now. Make this year the turning point in your life. When you do what you love you will be rewarded — it will just flow naturally.

Look at those around you who just make things happen. They have a clear goal in mind and they know where they want to go. They don't always have a plan but they have the passion and the tenacity to make it work, and they achieve their goals as the end result.

Trust us when we tell you this. If something important to you, you WILL find a way. If it isn't, you'll find an excuse. It’s that simple. Find your way. Make it work, whatever it takes. Are you 10 kilos heavier than you should be? It is simple: Commit, go to that gym every day, no excuses, and train until you lose those 10 kilos. When you accomplish this, you'll have the confidence to do more. Set a goal and make it happen.

Want to stop smoking? Stop making excuses, take control of your circumstances before they take control of you.

Success isn't just about what you accomplish in your life, it's about what you inspire others to do and when you do accomplish something as simple as quitting smoking or losing weight, you'll inspire others to do the same. Anyone can change the world, and everybody should try. And it all starts with your own life.

Stop waiting for the perfect time to do what you want to do. Do it now.

Life begins at the end of your comfort zone, so get used to being uncomfortable. It won’t kill you. Do you need a sign? Here it is: - Bill Tikos

Copy this whole article from a website. i think it's worth reading for many times.

2011-08-22T17:07:00.005+08:00

Feel ugly, this time is not because of my skin nor gaining weight, its my temper. Lose control again.
Losing temper is so different from Losing weight, its so much harder.
I feel bad for my body, why did i torture myself like that? if i knew how to control my feelings and temper, i can control so many situations/difficulties.

Last time after a quarrel, i am regret that i didnt say something to hurt someone back.
Now, i am regret every time because i didnt hold back.

ANYWAY!!!! whats past, its THE PAST! i need to do something to feel beautiful again. Thus, i am very productive today. Finished the 4th design of BFC design. Something to be happy about and hopefully this project goes smoothly..

Vonster working

2011-08-12T16:55:00.003+08:00

Deleted over 500 pictures in my google account just by a quick CLICK. it was an accident click.
i am very very very UPSET! some of the memories are memories that i never want to forget.
Fine... i actually have a backup for each pictures, which is in.. MY HEAD.

Anyway. this is a recent work done by me. its just a small cafe at the back of a pharmacy shop. trying to get the idea from 'Jones the Grocer', but clearly this tiny space cannot fit to their 'wide open' concept. So i can only grab the idea of the material used... black board, steel effect, timber and black glossy(weird combination, but it really goes well, proven by Jones the Grocer)

Views from the pharmacy store : coming soon.

me and my 'finally..its done' look.. at night.

Vonster love SATCHEL

2011-06-23T15:26:00.006+08:00

this blog existed since 2006,

quarter of my life is recorded here.

because of facebook and other social websites, i neglected my little blog over here.

and soon it becomes a place that i vented the most. (which i already deleted)

i start doing this again because i realised that i have a lot to share and record about things that i love, my creation , how i am inspired. everything.

yes that was my initial plan back in the past. and how can i forget that i used to enjoy this? Eventhou i am not good with WORDs, i try my best. hehe

ok fine, real reason-> i read quite a few blogs lately. debbie introduce me www.fashiontoast.com and another one is 'lovely B' (about home decor), i am TRULY inspired and i want to do it too! OOPsss!

what happened today?

remember the first time that i saw this picture, i went crazy instantly.
this color brings out the personality of the look.

Bag is really a very important accessory to your outfit, really!! i agreed!

i look at it almost everyday, tweet about it, instagram it.
it wasn't on sale on the internet ( for this series) 3 months ago?
deno helped me to search it on EBAY few weeks earlier... and.....

yes! its mine! finally!
so excited! and it really looks exactly from the picture itself.

of course, i wanna show it off in no time!
such a beauty.

This model of the Cambridge Satchel goes well with any colors,
even the gold one doesnt look odd.
my favourite ones are the NEON series, all of the colors!

Vonster's back from a trip.

2011-02-28T15:34:00.004+08:00

Langkawi is so relaxing and it makes me feel like its a short DREAM when i get back.
we went on cruise, stayed at 2 very nice villa by the ocean, water sports and drink beer under the sun. that was actually what i was dreaming for last year. i always wanted to go on a cruise with someone. and trust me its almost exactly the same as i thought. except for the other 4 friends that we have, but it was all okay they are nice and fun to be with. so much laughters!

its like a little dream come true without me noticing. THANKS to the UNIVERSE! wished the holiday was longer. WHAT A NICE HOLIDAY!! luckily the hangover is not that serious as i thought.

i should maybe move on and start dreaming about my next trips until it comes true. :D

Vonster going back to KUCHING

2011-02-01T15:32:00.003+08:00

few days back, i wasnt that excited about going back to my real hometown- Kuching. its been 4 years time since i last went back. i didnt even really want to go back until my dad told me that every year, he spent cny without his kids, i felt guilty and booked my tickets few days after.

i start thinking back where my dad and my siblings used to do in kuching. we love going to the temples, running around in kampong areas, eating kolo mee every morning, ride motorbike with my cousins, good food, fire crackers, visit ALOT of relatives that i cant even remember their names...

all the cousins around my age are guys, they are the reason why i am slightly boyish and adventurous now. we love to go jungle tracking and go to the river. and stay up late playing hide and seek. i wouldnt have known how to ride a bicycle or fly a kite if i hasnt been to kuching.

remember those times when everyone sleeps/eat together, inventing new games, go under the rain and most importantly, eat together, a long table full of 30-40 people of your own blood during SA-CHAP MEH, despite- no aircon and have to do some houseworks. actually it wasnt tat bad, i did had a great time when i was little. yes, now i am starting to feel excited. i wanna visit clubs and shopping malls too, if i have the time. YES, CNY I FEEL YOU NOW. :D

Die Alone By Ingrid Michaelson (+ Lyrics)

2010-12-09T10:00:00.000+08:00

i love this song from Ingrid Michealson- DIE ALONE.
i love the rythm,love the music, love her voice, love the lyrics especially.
this is the 'only' song that i really really really heart (it really touches my heart) since 'The Littlest thing- Lily Allen' 2-3 years ago.

the littlest thing made me cried when i first listened to it and i wasnt even hurt. like i wanted to tell lily allen 'I FEEL YOU'.
whereas, this very new song makes me feel secure the more i listen to.

i find 'i am just a stranger, even to myself' is very well said. sometimes we dont even know ourselves. of course its a love song, a positive one.

this song can make someone wants to fall in love.

'I never thought I could love anyone but myself.
Now I know I can't love anyone but you.
You make me think that maybe I won't die alone.
Maybe I won't die alone.'

2010-11-27T13:31:00.003+08:00

i love the movie Tangled. i love everything about it.
especially that DOG WANNABE horse, name MAXIMUS

its the edited Rapunzel from one of the fairy tales stories.
who don love fairy tales? even guys do, i guess they are just too shy to admit.
one of the reasons that i love to watch fairy tales movies is because of their soundtracks.
those songs are designed to fit in the movies. if i cant be one of the characters of fairy tales, at least i wish i can have a chance to sing/ act behind the scenes... how i wishhhhhhh

i would love to have the power of changing things to0....

*singing*
Flower, Gleam and Glow
Let your power shine
Make the clock reverse, bring back what once was mine
Heal what has been hurt, change the fates design
Save what has been lost, bring back what once was mine
What once was mine...

Vonster say monday is awesome

2010-08-02T17:08:00.003+08:00

awesome monday it is. thou i haven really come out with any works yet.
today i learnt to shift the bad energy to something else. and i felt great about it.
life is so good!!! more good news to come. :):):):):):):)

i know this is a good year for me because i believed so!

Vonster's secret admirer?

2010-02-05T09:15:00.003+08:00

' did you receive anything today?' a friend called up and asked.

' NO?!, how can? i dropped a letter at your car'

and i found this on the floor this morning.

-_-

this is a failure jest!

but it does make me smile :):)

early in the morning.

hahahahaha!

Vonster met AH LI

2010-01-18T01:03:00.002+08:00

it was a LOST Saturday afternoon, when i had nothing to do for 1 hour driving my car and decided to go window shopping myself... i made an illegal U-Turn and found someone pointing at me, it was CHEW LI!!!! what a coincidence! i stopped my car at the roadside immediately and she came into my car....

its been such a long time since i last saw Ah Li, we used to have basketball session together and have tea and parties.. we were not that close (as she is always occupied with LOVE) but... i enjoy talking to her whenever we have any conversation, so much laughter and i find her quite inspiring.
me and chew li can definitely talk for days i guess.

i was slightly pissed because she didnt contact me at all, she told me that she lost all her contacts.
okay that can be forgiven. i made her spend her Saturday night with me. we started playing all those LAME drinking games(that no one is willing to play with me) like we used to.
its really fun having her around :) :) :)
but she is going back tomorrow :( :( :(

how i wish Ah Li is always in Brunei.
goodbye/

Vonster's raining blue

2010-01-14T14:31:00.003+08:00

i think RAIN is romantic. even if i get wet, its okay.

but its been raining alot lately. and i am starting to hate it because my car is still in the workshop, its flooding EVERYWHERE and i cant even reach my car!

dont even know how to get back home.

WTF!

if i can live in a country which rains in a while, snows in a while, warm in a while, cold in a while.. that would be really great.. is there such country nowadays?

sigh... making everyone feeling so blue... really really blue...and sleepy.. and

MY LAZYNESS = x 10 than usual. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
why it floods in the afternoon?not in the morning before 8am?

the office is so quite.
my mind is very clear.

and i am clear of what i want TODAY,
I, chan evon, wants to stop wondering for empty promises.
I, chan evon, die also wanna get my car back TODAY!
I, chan evon, wants to finish at least one design of ATM TODAY!
I, chan evon, wants to CLEAR my mind! CLEAR! as in FORMAT!

p/s: great..rain is getting heavier.... -_-

Vonster's Vain thing!

2010-01-11T20:09:00.008+08:00

these are Lee Abrio's Shots that i personally like.
i picked some and edit my own since he's been busy.

Shots

these are from my 1st sessions

CRAZY POSE,
i remember this was a test shot.

other pictures from the beach. (Video Shooting)

p/s: recently i don drink anymore.

Vonster's video shooting

2009-12-28T13:13:00.005+08:00

i said i am gonna keep myself really busy and yes i did so.
even its not for money, i just want to participate and be wherever the weather.
Just because, LIFE IS SHORT!

My 1st outdoor shooting + video shooting was really relaxing.
Instructions from Joseph:
- stand still
- look emo all the time
- no smiling
- walk around

No Posing At All. <--- evon likes this!!
hahahahaha!!!!

nothing fancy here.

MISERABLE is our Theme

Here is the video!!!

Roads from Joseph Gatz on Vimeo.

i did had EYE MORE in my eyes but it just don work infront of camera.
don ask me why so emo?
because i have to fit in to the music, OKAY?
and be a ghost! LOL

Yea. Satisfy for my 1st time.
not bad!

comments from MAY:

-_-

Vonster cant wait!

2009-12-24T16:46:00.002+08:00

Damn! i've been viewing facebook for the whole afternoon.
its XMAS eve tonight and poor me and ezza have to stay in office.
Zzzzzzz.... i dont mean to be a hardcore blogger, but i really have nothing better to do.
or shall i say.. i am just slacking around. not in the right mood to work,
unfortunately i am in the right mood to PARTY~

you know.
i cant wait to go KL to meet KL friends,
i cant wait to go PHUKET with My dearest Ah May...
seriously... i cant wait no more....1 month and half to go!
i already start imagine what i am gonna wear and the wind of the beach
and we are going to do crazy stuff over there, we are going to have lots of fun!

Tickets ----- check!
Hotel ----- check!

I CANT WAIT! I CANT WAIT!

Vonster is melting again

2009-12-23T16:07:00.002+08:00

Joseph invite me for another shoot again...
this time, its VIDEO shooting.
i asked him what song is that, and he send me this song....

without second thought, i say YES!!!!!!
very much in love with this song.
excited!!! i can pretty much picture how the video's gonna be...

Elliot Smith - Between The Bars Lyrics

drink up, baby, stay up all night
the things you could do, you won't but you might
the potential you'll be, that you'll never see
the promises you'll only make

drink up with me now and forget all about the pressure of days
do what I say and I'll make you okay and drive them away
the images stuck in your head

people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

drink up, baby, look at the stars
I'll kiss you again between the bars where I'm seeing you
there with your hands in the air, waiting to finally be caught

drink up one more time and I'll make you mine
keep you apart deep in my heart separate from the rest
where I like you the best and keep the things you forgot

the people you've been before that you don't want around anymore
that push and shove and won't bend to your will
I'll keep them still

p/s: this is a xmas gift for myself! :)

Vonster's in holiday mood

2009-12-16T15:20:00.005+08:00

i am in holiday mooooood but sadly, there is no holiday for me.

BORING LAR!!! last year's xmas sucks too!!! damn it!

i am gonna make Xmas interesting this year!

hmph!!

AM VERY LUCKY because my colleagueS ARE fun to be with

without them i'll die of boredom in office!
weeee~

Ezza: EVON ARH!! I TELL U ARHH U BETTER DON TAKE MY PICTURE

Geri: ???????

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Vonster show off

2009-12-14T15:06:00.002+08:00

what to do? i really have nothing to update but this
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everything went great unexpectedly
and this is my favourite shooting session of all.
i find it very easy and comfortable to work with everyone.

Thanks to LEE, Gatz and Chin Seng (photographer)
INA and Elin (MUA and Hairstylist)

aww... Sunday is not Wasted again~~~~