Vonster blog

when i am happy, i blog

when i am feeling uncomfortable, i blog

when i learn something new, i blog

when someone tells me something and it keep lingers on my mind,
i blog

when i have new resolution..... I.....:

Right! I dont want stuck there anymore,
whether at work, in relationship, physically, mentally??? whatever?
i want to move on! i want to have RESULTS or at least progress..
i want to gain something new everyday.
IT WILL NEVER GONNA BE ENOUGH!

Vonster beh song!

when limteh is sitting at the showroom, studying fengshui whole day,
YIN silently sit on the jetplane and fly to KK.
ST is driving her prado to KK.

conclusion, i m so jealous.
SHIT!!

p/s: single bed or double bed? yellow or green?

Vonster's Xmas 2009

hey. its xmas! and its a off day and i've been 'pigging' whole day long.sleep and eat and sleep and eat and sleep. i dun feel like going out.......prison break really did a great job!!! at least, it keeps my brain empty. hmm... seee, life's like this. i've always reminiscing the past during big days.
last XMAS---> 25 december 2007
.
.
.
.
was memorable..
its like: ' Last christmas i gave u my heart................'
hahahaha.. not so dramatic lar.
Xmas Eve this year, i went to a house party, eat and drink and dance for a while
and then went home and sleep.

Z z z z z z z z z

maybe i should expect a better New Year Eve. hehe!


p/s: lately, i try to 'take-control' my dreams when i'm sleeping...

vonster's little thoughts

He is in my head... not every time.. but randomly, out of nowhere.

:))))) i got to believe in the law of attraction. its getting real...

anywaysss, Chryll's off for two weeks and Riza is always out the showroom.
MUAHAHAHHAHAHA!!! this place is mineeeeeee...... no one can spy me anymore~
lonely is good at times. you know like, playing my own cds and sing out loud.//
drink some tea and read some magazines, do things slowly as it can be.
ARHH`` LIFE IS SO GOOD!

right, i'm going to betray my brother once again..
you know, my brother is so unlike any guy i met out there.
that day i saw him carrying a plastic bag with inside full of papers and cards?
he said, he's gonna make a Xmas card for his 'first' gf..

So, when he is not around...
i flipped through his yet to be done Xmas card.

and then i was startled.
i think he is creative.. at the age of 16.
there's nothing like, 'i love you'
'your my only one' or ' i want to be with you forever'
its not DIRECT at all!
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

its not like a simple card you just write your meaningful sentences on.
cut and paste = sincere enough i say....
okay.... its more like he explained what's the purpose of Xmas
by showing some meanings of the words they use.

okay, if this one were for me,
i will presume that he already think that i'm one of his family member?

he wants me to be happy, joyful all the time?!?!
i'm just guessing only yea..

got talent lerrrrrr....

so got heart i say.
normal guys wont do that lor~~
they will just simply buy a bear bear or what to keep your mouth shut.

Awww.....
thats so sweet!
makes me think of Ah Sun...
struggling his head to get the idea of how to surprise Joanne
just to see the smile on her face, that just made him felt good. :>

p/s: its not lifeless, its a habit. it = online. OKAY? hahahahhaa

Vonster's workplace

oh i just cant resist red color.
with the rose is even better!!!
and red is right infront of me everyday..
how am i 'se de' to leave?????

and this is a good example of.. small and big.
i love my working place. just love it!
despite all the dealing with some brainless customer and bad colleague in office blablabla....there's no way i can complain about the environment that i'm working in.
everyday i'm seeing beautiful things rather than just stationaries or tools,
i feel that i'm blessed!

its a showroom,
a workplace,
at times, you feel like its a small apartment.
i feel like home, i walk bare feet and put my legs up the chair.

i conquer the whole 2m x 1m dining table !!!
hahahahahaha!!
i really feel more comfortable with messy table,
i find it harder to find my stuff if they are place nicely together.

actually i'm quite flexible with my work,
i come to work late everyday..
(i haven change that very bad habit of 'Lai chuang')
and my boss is okay with that. luckily.

all the beautiful wallpapers from around the world are here ^^

office?? or dining?? or study area??
we dont know.. all in one.

the best part of the showroom.
COFFEE MAKER.. save my life!
there are two cassette air-conditioner here and is driving me crazy!
(limbeh cannot stand cold!)

chryll and william are best friends, thou they always quarrel..
they are my daily tv show. ^^

we dont have any extra petty cash for better xmas tree.
so kasian.. oour xmas tree is SKINNY!!!

i love pulling all the curtains and blinds up when its raining.
the scenery turns blue and the feelings are different!

tell me.. if u r von.. would u leave this place?
and go for a 'slightly' better pay job with strict environment?

Vonster is not single!

very painnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
i hate this one month one time! u GUYs will nvr understand our pain.

oh well... maybe Edward Cullen will understand?! u know.. he can read ppl's mind?
I FANTASY HIM! its been a long time since i last crazy about some tv guy.
i feel so 14 yrs old man... haha!!!

i was stunned there, right after his existence in Twilight
as if i had an electric shock straight to my eyes from his eyes. tsssssssssszzzz
how can someone be soooooooooooooooooooooooo attractive?? very amazing!
i really don mind being with this kind of angmoh!

hehei! its us... he said,
' from now on, you are my life...'

Vonster smelled some poo2!

there is one song that i want to sing since last night,
ALL THE THINGS YOU SAID,
ALL THE THINGS YOU SAID,
RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD,
RUNNING THROUGH MY HEAD!!!!

its inside my head and i will nvr forget.
another thing i love about myself is,
i can easily forget what happen last night and have another beautiful day.
i'm fragile but in other way, i admit i'm strong!

thanks for scolding me, thanks for waking me up from walking into the devil side
thanks to you FF!
there are lots of moments that i couldnt stand on my point and explain,
because you completely oblivious of how i feel.
and that doesnt mean that you WIN!!!
hide yourself in your holes!

Vonster's lalala

cant you see? i'm trying to be grateful for what i have now.
hehe. :))))))

its okay to not having Love, i can always VISUALIZE IT.

Vonster mood swing

today is beli free. nothing to do. i start thinking again...
some facts about VON...
sometimes i dont understand why, in a second i can be very very hyper, another second my mood seem dropped onto nowhere. are you guys the same as i?! actually, i'm a very simple person, tiny tiny stuff can satisfy me. so its not hard to see the smile on my face, somehow in a way, its not easy to keep the 'smile' too.

recently, i like orange-red

the other day, Yin were asking me:
"what are the things u love and hate about yourself?"

didnt have much thought of it.. i answered:

love myself..hmm..... i dont know.....

hate myself..... indecisive, soft hearted, too weak, too straightforward and scare to be alone and and and......................
(i remember there's a lot more..)



now i realised, i cant even 'sell' the good points of myself to others, how can i expect ppl to like or love me, when i dont even appreciate of what i am.. from our conversation, i once again confirmed that, i'm a low confident person(even sometimes i act confident) -_-


Now, i'm trying hard to think what i love about myself...
hmm.........................................................................................


1) easy-going and flexible.
2) not stubborn.
3) can forgive and forget in a very short period of time.
4) easily enjoy myself.
5) i'll be there if my friend say they need me.
6) good listener. (not a good adviser)
7) appreciate and thankful for whatever ppl gave me :)
8) do not get jealous easily. <-- to make it clear, sometimes i will argue because i think its unfair or incorrect doesnt mean that i'm jealous okay.
9).............................................can find 8 points is consider not bad, at least there is improvement.

Von still admires Von
: )
^^

Vonster see F4